God loves the sinner

Chapter 30

For out of the heart come evil thoughts—murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭15‬:‭19‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Quality

Weeks been by and still have not talked to Champ. He no longer has me blocked but whenever I call he answers and ask if anything is wrong and when I say "no"he hangs up. He really only talks to me when I have a question about the Bible or if I ask him to pray with me. He's serious about cuttin me off because I'm comfortable in my sin.

That doesn't seem fair to me because Im just now becoming a Christian. But I see what he means because I'm just not ready to turn from all of my sin yet. I still lie and do other things that God does not like. And champ seems to not accept that.

Things with Dee has been good. The more I spend more time with him the more I have a sexual urge. I can tell that he also has those urges but we do not say anything because he knows that I'm waiting til marriage. Shabangbang will be so much better with the man I'm married to for the first time.

"Q" Dee says

"Q" Dee says again while lightly pushing me

"Huh?" I asked

"Watchu over there thinking about?" Dee asks

We're sitting at the kitchen table waiting for his parents to get home so we can go. They don't want him to leave until they check the house to make sure he did his chores.

I shook my head "it's nothing"

"Ight" he says dismissing the topic

I get on my phone and reply to Desire text message. This girl so funny she tellin me that I needa take out my 2 month old braids cause they look like dreads now.

I laugh at her message

"Who you talkin to?" Dee asked

I accidentally ignored him and continued texting Desire. You know the convo so good that it's hard to multi task sometimes.

"Talkin to Bj ain't it" Dee said from across the table

I turned off my phone and rolled my eyes. I set my phone face down on the table and gave him my attention

"Not you goin back to this again" I said with much attitude

"Nah I'm jus askin who you talkin to shorty you ain't gotta do allat" he said

"I'm not talkin to him. And his name is Cj" I corrected

He grinned "oh my fault. You gon make sure
I say his name right ain't it"

"You know he taught me about his forgiveness... Something you need to do" I mumbled but loud enough for him to hear

"Quality you can't even forgive yo own mama" he said

My mouth dropped open

Dannnggggg

His parents walked in with a bag of groceries for the house.