The next day I slept late into the afternoon, the the tears were done falling. I saw that the door was cracked open slightly and hades was sleeping on the bed next to me. My eyes felt puffy, they burned a little from the crying. I checked my phone an saw that Alex, Jasmine, and James had texted me. I responded to each of them before going down stairs.
As I made my way over my eyes drifted to his room. The thoughts of last night resurfaced, I wanted so desperately to just go in there and hug him, kiss him, and apologize for all the cruel things I said. But I couldn't how could I face him after doing that to him. He deserves someone way better than me or Jessica or whatever her name is.
I walked closer to the door and stopped. Something was pulling me to his room. I shook my head and turned to walk away from the door but it slammed open an he grabbed hold of me pulling me inside the room closing the door once I was inside. He looked nervous, he rubbed his hands together trying to calm himself. He looked scared but he was trying to look at ease, I wanted to touch him and care for him but I restrained myself.
He took a breath before taking my hands in his. "I broke up with her" he started, his voice was soft but you could hear trying not to let I crack "I told her I couldn't- run a business and be with her... and she told me that she cheated on me with one of my guards" tears build in his eyes as he tried to control himself.
"I asked him and he stared crying, he said she made him drink with her or she would tell me some lie to get me to fire him. He told her he had to go to the bathroom and when he came back that his drink was a little off and I tried too ask him what happened after the drink but he only cried"
I don't know why but I felt myself getting angry how could she go so low to do something to someone who wasn't apart of thier stupid little drama. I took a breath before whipping away his tears and telling him that it was ok and that he didn't know.
I looked him in the eyes before whipping away his last tear. He looked at me for a second before he pressed his soft lips against mine. I didn't kiss him back i felt his lips linger on mine before pushed him back softly looking away form him knowing that if I didn'tI would've lost myself to him.
"Miah I already told you I don't-" I spoke softly before he cut me off.
"I know Jay." His voice held the same as mine as he held my face in his hand and titled my head to face him and look him in his eyes. His soft deep amber eyes looked into mine as I felt my self begin to crack under his gaze. How could I be so cruel as to hurt him. The thoughts ran through my head I hurt him and I just left how could I. I could feel tears bringing my eyes but I didn't let them fall I had no right to cry.
"If I can't have you anymore just let me kiss you one last time until I find away for you to forgive me...please Jay" his voice was soft and carried hurt. He leaned in but I moved my head back "not right now ok.. just later ok" my heart was pounding in my chest he didn't answer just nodded his head. I quickly left his room and went back to the one he gave me.
My heart kept pounding in my chest and I couldn't seem I catch my breath. When hades saw me he laid himself down on my lap and let me pet him to calm myself but. Slowly I felt myself become at ease with my breathing back to normal.
This happened every time I felt stressed or overwhelming and hades was always there to comfort me. Miah entire my thoughts again but it wasn't just about the pain I gave him but what led up to it.
All the times he brought the one subject that always left me crying, him prying into my life, listening to my conversations, and then making me look a fool infront of everyone by lying in my face.
All the unnecessary pain he caused me, but I still couldn't shake away how he made my body feel, how he rocked my body with his thrust, how my stomach drops every time I see him, how he smiles at me, how his eyes spark when he looks at me, how my love for him grows every single day.
