Miah's P.O.V
I didn't think one week would past so fast he only has than a week left before he leaves. Alex called me the same day I brought it up after he was sure he had fallen asleep. Honestly I thought he would have taken more time to at least consider the proposal I guess not.
I didn't come up with the idea completely out of the blue. After i quite drinking and just let my thoughts run wild i went back to every time we had a argument it broke my heart knowing i drove him to such lengths that he had to break down and cry every time.
I thought back to where he had that break down about his past. I knew that anything Jay wants between us is never going work because he is still holding on to his past.
I did some research and found something. It was a place that aloud you to live your every day life but you would have to come in everyday and have a one on one session with a therapist. Sometimes they will bring someone with the same problems so the two can talk.
I did a background check and called the place just make sure they are what they say. I know I could've found a place here but I wanted to be sure he was actually going to get better.
For the past week he's acted like he wasn't about to leave me, Alex, his friends (and whatever him and james are) all behind for two months or more. Instead he continued to dance letting his beautiful body guide him gracefully across the stage. The one thing I didn't like though, was the way he just started closing up.
He would give short replies when he's asked something but other that he just doesn't talk. I wanted to ask him why he's acting like this but not even alex can get through to him maybe it was what Alex told me. Jay wanted us to move on after he left. But how could i he was one of the people i could actually see myself loving and spending the rest of my life with.
Alex has been by his side the hole time and I've just been here waiting for something.
Maybe a sign or signal telling me that, after everything I've done to him and what im trying to do just to have him back in my arms, that it was ok to just talk to him nothing else he didn't need that right now. When Alex told me that Jay actually needed me at first I was a bit overwhelmed but I managed to get myself under control and help him. My beautiful angel cried and held on to me and told me he loved another man.
He loved someone else, I didn't think it would hurt that much but I understand now that I like him and I let him go. I let him slip from my fingers, I let one of the only people I care about get away from me. Me and the same person he's in love with have grown closer after he came to my house trying to tell me off.
I started paying attention to him trying to find everything my baby sees in him that he doesn't find me. There was so much, there were so many ways I can't compare to him but right now all I care about is Jay he is my main focus. This is my last week with him I'm not going to let him slip away from me again.
A knock on my office Door signaled me out of my thoughts. "Come in" called looking down at the paperwork on my desk that I have yet to touch. I heard my door creak open and in walked the two guys that have been on my mind all day.
"Hey Jeremiah" Alex called with his lively voice ringing through my office. "You've been up here working so hard we haven't seen you all day" he smiled brightly while Jay basically hid behind him. Was he scared of me, he stayed where was as Alex kept himself in front.
"Why are you calling me that" I wasn't asking to be rude or to be mean. It's just because of how use I am to be called miah that my real name just doesn't sound right. "Oh my bad Miah, we missed you" he said putting emphasis on my name.
