[Alex P.O.V]
"Fuck it feels so good" a movie was playing that grabbed Jay's and I attention. "Oh fuck I think I'm gonna-" all of a sudden the guys boyfriend came into the room stopping the guy from cumming. What the fuck kind of movie was this. "Me personally I would let him cum then fucked him till he couldn't cum anymore" that earned me a laugh from him along with a soft smile.
I was currently over at Jay's new apartment "helping him" unpack I was gonna stay with him for a little bit because Shawn had left to visit some family and I didn't want to be alone while he was gone. I was laying on his couch as he tried to figure out the things he needed. I continued to watch the movie. The boyfriend's dick was already inside the guy.
The guys back arched and the cameras cut to a clip where the camera trailed down his body. It reminded me of Jay's body how smooth and shaven it was perfect. But Jay his body is more than just perfection, it reminded me of everytime he rolled his body on the pole. "Alex" I was pulled away from my thoughts as Jay called for me.
"Let's go to the store I need a few things" he said holding a folded piece is paper. I whined trying to get comfortable in his soft ass couch. "Noo I'm to comfortable" I complained. He only shrugged and walked away "fine I guess you don't want any cookies, or oreos, or for me to cook for you. But hey it's fine I'll go all by myself" he's so fucking compelling. "Fine I'll go but I do want thoes cookies and for you to cook"
"Of course" he smirked walking up stairs to get ready with me right behind watching his body move. I realized that I've grown comfortable around Jay, really comfortable, there are times when I just want him to lay with me and other thoughts that if Shawn found out he would go ballistic. Shawn we agreed to start dating. It was going really good at first, we were acting how we usually do.
But now I see him getting more and more pissed off with me by the day. I don't know what I did ether I just wanted to kiss or hug him and he would just push me away. Sometimes it was gentle sometimes I ended up having a bruises. But I don't care I was thinking about breaking up with him anyway. He's become so distant but Jay he's right here.
I love Shawn I really do but I don't think he loves me. And I've except it by now we even moved in together because he wanted to prove that he loved me. I'm not sad about it just glad I got the hints. I looked at Jay in the mirror and saw his face. He looked so disgusted like had never seen anything so hideous in his life. And he was just staring at himself, I hate when he does this he's so fucking perfect he can't even see it.
"Stop looking at yourself like that Jason" I said in a final tone. "Like what" he asked whipping away the tears before they could stain his beautiful face. "With so much pity and disgust" I snapped causing him to flinch back. I sighed before continuing lowering my voice in a softer tone.
"Jay you are so beautiful and you can't even see it, you look at yourself with so much hate you can't even see how fucking gorgeous you are. And you have all these people who would do anything to just be with you like Jeremiah he's learning how to love so he can love you at least he's trying and James just never shuts the hell up about you and..."
I ranted on and on about how he has all these people after him who just wants to see him happy that I hadn't noticed that I was crying. He had wrapped his arms around my neck. He whispered nothings in my ear causing me to shiver every time. "I'm so sorry, I've been clouding you in my drama I never asked if you were ok"
He dragged me his bed where he layed my head on his chest. Even though I'm taller than him by an inch it still felt good. "Can you tell me what's wrong" I nodded my head and told him everything even the stupid little thing like that he never let's me to top even though he knows I'm a switch. To every time I get done with a dance he'd call me a slut or something like that.
