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Mob

Today my friends tried to get the needle from me. It looked like they were ganging up on me and I had a horrible hallucination about my elementary school. I feel so depressed. I just want to grab a knife and slit my throat. I'm coming down with a cold. Maybe I can get a break from life. This week has been horrible. I hated every step of it. I just want to end it all. But I can't do that. It's for the sake of my boyfriend. Since he's not from here, he gets confused easily. He is so innocent; I don't know what he will do if I die. The butterfly effect is horrible. I hate it. If I kill myself, everyone else will follow. What do I do just stand there and let myself get broken down by everyone. I don't think so.....