Random stuff

Dear...

Dear Self,
Please have more confidence in yourself. Don't be afraid to take risks. Please eat more food and stop trying to eat less. Please try and go to more kpop concerts, maybe you'll get lucky and see one of them face to face ;). Please continue to swim, no matter how hard the freakin sets are. Push yourself to great things.

Dear Mom,
Thanks for being around and embracing my weirdness. Thanks for raising me well and always looking out for me, even though some of the work you've done should have come from dad. Thanks for paying for me to go to a great school, even though that does do a number of stress on you. Please be alive when I have my children so you can help me teach them beautiful things.

Dear Dad,
I don't know where we ended up, but I don't think we'll ever get out. I numbed myself to the pain you gave me for my own survival. I love you, but you need to see what the things you say do to people. Hopefully, we'll be able to forgive each other for our sins.

Dear Crush,
You'll probably never notice me, but that's fine. Crushes are a weird thing, don't you think? You're literally on the other side of the world, how will I ever be able to see you? I mean like your also five times more famous than I am so we'll never cross paths. Just know that I'm supporting you and will be there till the very end. It hurts me to think about you because to me, you're my everything, but when you look at me, I'm just another fan. Just another follower in the crowd. Just a small portion of something bigger. Not to be noticed. Not to be seen...

(If you guessed a kpop idol have some free candy youz right)

Dear school,
Thanks for pushing me to the point where I cry literally every night because of stress. But I guess it makes me develop study ethnics or something. The main thing I'm thankful for is the friends that I have because of school. Thanks for making school somewhere where I feel secure, not afraid (unlike my old school).

Dear bro,
Please be strong through your adolescent years. You'll probably be plagued with the same thoughts I had but stay strong. Continue to play soccer and travel around the world for tournaments. Maybe Korea so I can see my kpop guys lol jk. Thanks for being weird with me and showing me all the things you find on YouTube.

Dear past me,
Don't let people tie you down. Don't let people control your life. You are an individual with your own mind and own actions. Stand up to your class, fight them. No I don't mean physically kick their butts (I mean you can but don't), give them a clear warning. Make then suffer, steal their stuff, splash them with water. Your class... they need to pay for the things they've done to you.

(Yes I am a complete sadist sometimes but my elementary school class deserves it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

Dear first love,
I was listening to first love by BTS and I have the perfect thing to say for you. You were in my middle school class, pretty nice and pretty chill. It was a shame to realize that you didn't have the same feelings but I'm over it. Since we barley talk anymore, I just hope you find someone who can make you happy.

Dear best friends (y'all know who u are),
Thank you all for supporting me through tough times. I was bullied for two years in my elementary school. I was an outcast, I was worried I'd have no friends in middle school. But you all came along and took me in. I'm really grateful for that. Remember that I have your back and if you need anything just talk to me.

Dear future child,
My dear, beautiful, child. You're going to do so much great things in life. I'll make sure to raise you well and shape your character. You're beautiful, don't let other people bring you down because of your appearance. I don't care what the others say, just know that your mother is here to support you all the way through. Please open up to me when you have problems, you can't solve everything yourself. If your considering suicide, look at those around you. One way or another, you're going to affect them because they love you so much.

Dear person I hate,
I don't really have a strong hate towards people but I guess you managed to piss me off. You really need to watch your actions because that's the part that pisses me off. Another fact is when you bother my friends just to talk to me. That makes me want to slap the smug smile off your face.

Dear person I love,
Where do I begin? You make my day. You're so adorable and loving. We're awkward together but I love it. You're always there for me, comforting me and keeping me warm. You've accepted me for who I am, and I thank you for that. I hope we'll stay together till the end of time (omg that was so cheesy XD).

Dear ex best friend,
I knew you were never my friend. I knew about the stuff you told everyone behind my back. Don't think I don't know anything. I know everything about you. Don't think I'd forget where you live. Don't think I don't see your mom every one in a while and want to tell her about you. Don't think that you're safe because I'm watching you...

Dear people who hate me,
I hate you too :).