Acting fine is very easy for a lot of people. Being able to look at your friends and family in the eye and say "I'm fine". But the only person who would know the truth is you. Lying to the person who should know you the best might be a little harder to hide it from because they should be able to tell you're lying. But when he can't notice it that you are sometimes. It's hard knowing that he's the person you want to tell what's wrong you can't because you're scared of what he might say. You are too scared to tell and too scared to lose him. You're losing people so easily and when you feel scared you want to push people away. It's like choosing life or death. You want to tell him so you can feel alive. If you lose him, you will feel like your life and whole world are coming to an end. You feel like you're dying and no one can save you anymore.
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Song I'm Not The Only One- Sam Smith
