My Boy~ -Cardinal Copia x Trans!Male!Reader-

Life Eternal

Tobias drove the sleeping y/n home after the movie, carrying him to his room and lying him down on his bed.

Tobias had to practice, rehearse, and get ready for his next concert... In the next state over...

He wrote a note for y/n to wake up to. On the way home from the theatre he had gotten a text from air, who usually drove because he literally never sleeps, that said they'd stop by to pick him up so they could go continue their tour.

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Tobias kissed y/n on his head and cheek before making his way towards the door, trying not to wake y/n but ultimately failed.

"Tobias..?" Y/n groggily said as he sat up and yawned.

"Did I wake you, love..? I'm sorry. I... I have to go. We have to continue our tour..." Tobias said, turning and sitting down at the door of y/ns bed.

"Oh... That's okay, I know you're very busy and I'm lucky to have even had you for this long..." Y/n said, looking down, disappointed and sad.

"I can try to see if you can come with..? I'm not sure when the next time I'll see you will be... I want this relationship to last. I love you. I love you so much I can't even describe how much I love you." Tobias said, gripping y/ns hands and staring into his eyes.

"I... I can't just leave... Satan knows I'd love to go with you, but I have a job! I have Syke, I have all of this... If I don't know when you'll be coming back, I... I can't just leave... It could be weeks, months, maybe even a year! I... I really really love you, I'll miss you ever millisecond you're gone... I love you... I miss you already... I love you to Pluto an back ×infinity." Y/n said, almost tearing up as the reality started stabbing him.

"I'll call you every night... I know long distance relationships are hard to manage, but sometimes you can come see me on shows and or off months, or I can come see you on off months, I just want to do whatever it takes to keep this love alive, y/n. I love you, y/n. Nothing will ever change that." Tobias said, also tearing up.

Y/n only closed his eyes as tears rolled down his cheeks and hugged tobias, pressing his lips to his and trying his hardest not to breakdown.

"Hold on, you mentioned wanting to see me without the make-up, right..? I'll be right back." Tobias said after pulling away and placing his hands on the sides of y/ns face.

Tobias walked into the bathroom, coming out after five minutes.

"Close your eyes, love." Tobias said, walking out and sitting in front of y/n. He pressed their lips together, not wanting to pull away but knowing he had to.

Tobias pulled away as y/n opened his eyes, smiling and softly chuckling as he wiped the tears from his eyes and studied to Tobias' face.

"You're even more hot than I've ever imagined... Heh, makes me wanna kiss you even more than before..." Y/n said, rubbing his cheek into Tobias' hand, the comforting skin to skin contact forcing more tears from y/ns eyes.

Tobias smiled, pressing his now pink, perfect lips to y/ns. Y/n was quick to wrap his arms around Tobias' neck, and Tobias was quick to wrap his arms around y/ns waist.

Y/n didn't want the moment to end, but Tobias had to keep his career, he had to please his fans.

Tobias pulled away, putting his forehead to y/ns and moving his hands to the other male's face.

"I've got to go now, love. I'll be back, I promise. I love you, y/n." Tobias said, kissing y/n on the forehead then his lips one last time and getting up.

"I love you too, Tobias." Y/n said, looking down then up at Tobias with a sad smile.

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Tears rolled down y/ns face endlessly, rapid breathing trying to calm. All he could do was hope to Satan that getting stoned would make the pain subside.

He didn't know why he was sad. He never cried when his other lovers left. Why was this happening to him? Was it because he's idolized that man for so long, because he's fallen in love with someone who treats him like a person and loves him back, someone he idolizes, as doesn't want to lose?

He just needs to calm his breathing. He just needs to take a big hit. He just needs to wait it out. Maybe call him later? No, don't seem needy. Don't seem clingy. Don't make it seem like you're 100% dependent on him to make you feel better, happy. Wait for him to call.

Listen to some ghost, take some more hits, dry the tears, don't dig your nails into your skin again. Don't. You'll regret it. Don't be this frustrated over a person.

You're acting like it's her.

Don't do that.

That's a bad idea.

She's gone.

She's moved on.

Live in the present.

He loves you now.

He's the one who loves you.

I know you still love her.

She's not yours anymore.

She's got a life now.

You're just an old friend.

You have a life now.

She's just a memory.

You have someone now. He reminds you of her.

He's not her.

Don't treat him like her.

Don't treat this relationship like hers.

This is new.

You should be happy.

Be happy.

Be happy.

Be happy.

Be happy.

Smile.

"Yo... Y/n..? You good..? You haven't come down to ask me to make you a cheese quesadilla with the string cheese... Wanna come down and watch some regular show? Craig of the creek? Amazing world of gumball? Rick and Morty?" Syke said, trying to comfort xeir best friend.

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