hidden behind these carved letters

➻ʷᵒʳᵈˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᶜʰᵃᵒˢ

for how long have I been extrapolating what to write-
I don't know.
I am stuck; hands seemingly immobile-
whilst holding a quill and parchment.
It's hard for me to even write a nuanced word;
pain.
or maybe-
that's what I'm currently perceiving that expressing seems baffling for me.
perchance scribbling necessitate lashings of effort
and I'm not doing it satisfactorily
that words won't come out
that retching them feels like an arduous task
but
to forgo or acquiesce-
neither will I choose

[A.J]