Finding Peace Within Him

Chapter 1

Kayla Williams/17

January 9 2023, Sunday * 6:30am

Crescent Lane* Primrose, May Pen Clarendon

Gunshots got louder and louder as the minutes passed, I lay down flat on my belly underneath the bed waiting for the gunshots to cool off.

Every night was the same thing, the Gunmen were at war ever since the don death. Gunshots were ringing out in the distance. It's worse than last night. I wonder what's going on to because this but I will stay put under the bed. Grandma always tells me, when you hear a gunshot, you should lie down and don't move until it stops.

Hello, guys, my name is Kayla Williams, I'm a dark skin girl but not too dark, and not to be full of myself, I am a pretty likkle girl.

I am about 5'3 last medical checkup that is what the doctor said, but if you look at me I am shorter than that, and though I have curvy hips and big breasts it makes me look big for my age people would say me too short like me not eat the right amount of food but I eat a lot.

I have short natural hair, my favorite colors are blue, grey, and lavender. I love to listen to music and watch Asian dramas and I am a big introvert with little to no friends.

I live in a big community called Primrose with my mother, stepfather, and siblings. The community was divided into two lanes, the middle-class people live in Crescent Lane which is the poor part of the community, and every other day somebody dies in the lane.

We live in a three-bedroom house on the lane. Sometimes I wish I did live in Black Rose Lane which was up on a hill and that was where the high-class people further known as where the rich people live. And that's where all the politicians, doctors, lawyers, Artists, and Gunmen live in Clarendon.

I have never been up there before but I hear that luxurious life people live up deh live, people also say that there are more trouble up there than down here. My neighbor's daughter tell me that the whole community is run by a man that calls himself the don over the whole Primrose community and every politician respects him.

The community is run by gunmen and the government can't do anything about it because the same gunmen work for them and do their duty work. That's why our government is so fucking corrupt, all the police them are afraid to come up here because of the gunmen and the soldier them could care less after all them a get them money just for sitting down and not do anything. I can't say anything cause the same gunmen them a keep up the peace on the two street them but lately things not going good.

My mother Sophie hates me, yes that she says I am supposed to call her because she young though she gives birth to me, she always beats me for no goddamn reason and she doesn't make me have a good life like my younger siblings.

She always calls me horrible names and cusses me out every single day, I don't even understand why she does that. Still, deh wonder what the hell I do her fi deserves this harsh treatment from my own blood, and why does she hate me so? Imagine she is my mother, the one that births me and she treats me worse than the dog dem pan the street, dung to all Cinderella have a good life.

Sophie always locks me up in the bedroom when I don't have no chores to do or when any family member visits. She says I am a disgrace and don't deserve to know anyone so she excludes me from the picture, but I feel there is something more to the story than she lets on. The last time me go to school was in grade 8 she made me drop out, so I could take care of my twin siblings.

While she go out and do her business god knows where and leave me to do everything in the house like I am the mother. Lewin works a water commission, he is my stepfather, and he does not do anything in the yard but he always gives money for the bills. He is a good man though he is a gyal clown, Sophie used him like a dog.