☙When I was young and dumb,
I never really did grow out of it,
it's not like I got to grow up anyway.
Will we ever get out of this place?
Are you watching me again?
Why am I still conscious?
The love between you and Tomoe began here, or did it...
The crisp autumn wind was forcibly pressing cold air my lungs, making my nose sting. Worry was clouding up my mind, unable to even comprehend the idea of thinking about anything else. My tears were blinding me, threatening to trickle down my cheeks, I quickly sniffled, occupying my sleeve to wipe away every drop that was in danger of falling.
Sure, I've had my ditzier moments, but I'm not oblivious.
Its exactly as she said, to give me peace of mind, just a bit longer, was all I needed of her. I didn't want her to be dragged away by the hands of death, not yet.
She can't stay long, but I needed a little more time.
Being almost halfway home, I had absentmindedly decided to visit a local convenience store nearby. It seems like I had been walking for an eternity, I thought that I would atleast make it worthwhile and get myself a snack.
Can I even call myself a goddess? Making such childish promises, I could hardly think of myself as one. That's just unfair, there were so many people out there, more deserving of this role than I was, what have I even done to get here?
Such an unstable individual, merely acting as a landgod.
If Yua kicks the bucket, I feel that I would never be able to feel love, ever again.
I probably won't even make it to next year.
"Welcome!" I heard the warm, raspy voice of a young lady working behind the counter. I quietly muttered my greetings with a bow and a smile before heading over to look for something appetizing.
"Have a good day!" I managed to squeak out, adamantly tearing open the plastic packaging of my newly bought food.
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"I'm home!" I peeped, barely louder than a whisper. I hashed to have a small peek at the mirror beside me, fixing up my hair and wiping away earlier tear stains. "So, how did it go?" Tomoe was quick to appear next to me, cocking an eyebrow at my averted gaze, "yeah, no it went went great! I-I mean, it went very typically, very usual and nothing out of the ordinary, I don't- I don't know what to say - it was alright, I guess," the last thing I needed was to remind myself of how little time we had left, and once teardrops fog up my eyesight, I know it's gonna last for a long time yet.
He seemed to take notice of my quivering voice, the pressure which I felt on my larynx hardened, "well, what happened then?" he merely sighed out, clearly trying to hide his concern.
"Nothing, honestly! I'm not lying. It wasn't anything out of the ordinary, I'm just sensitive, it's fine, I'm fine, I swear,"
"you are very odd, Y/n"
"Tell me about it," I remarked with a tinge of sarcasm, releasing a breathy, unusual chuckle.
"You'll need to start working on your godly powers, now that you're here, I need to make sure you don't just end up a powerless goddess, not on my watch," I could only hum as a response, turning my heel to make my way elsewhere, "where are you going?" I heard a familiar masculine voice, with a speech so sophisticated trail behind me.
"I just need a moment,"
After a while of sitting with my face buried in my knees, I had raised my head, hair in disarray. I had released a shaky breath that I somehow hadn't remembered holding in, I can't help but get overwhelmed at the amount of attention I'm getting. Everything I held down in me now came swirling out, I had taken notice of my earlier tidy room, which my hands had dirtied up by now,
My memory had sparked again, creating a new round of whirling worries, which pointed needles at my stomach.
"Tomoe?" I raised my voice, although in a hesitant manner, and way faster than I could ever imagine, he was already standing by my doorway, "what is it?"
"I need to register myself into school,"
"No,"
"what?"
he had raised his hands to massage his nose bridge again, his tone now more serious sounding, "I said no. If all of that frequent visiting school and homework will keep up, you'll never have time to become a proper god, then what will we do? Even if you had time to spare, you do realize how dangerous being there would be?" I had already regretted my choice to even comprehend mentioning school, "Tomoe, I think you're forgetting that-" "you can defend yourself. I know, I know that. Y/n, you have to understand, how big of a risk that is," was he ever willing to hear me out?
"But what if I wear that hat?
"I have a feeling you won't," can't he just trust me for five seconds?
"What if you'll come with?" that will do it!
"And who, pray tell would clean the shrine, then?" oh, he has a point there,
"please, just tell me what I need to do,"
he cocked his eyebrow at me, "nothing, there's nothing you can do," it was on, I had nothing to lose, "let's think about it this way, then, if you'll let me attend school, you'll be a good familiar, right, because you're thinking about my future. You know I can't stay a landgod forever right? I'll have to think about getting a job in the future, if I don't, I'll be jobless, if I'm jobless, I won't have money, if I won't have money, I won't have a home, I'll be homeless, and if I'm homeless, I'll die," well that surely left him thinking,
"Fine, only if you wear that damned hat, that is," my eyes had widened, sometimes, it seems a little guilt trip is necessary, aren't I right?
"Tha- Thank you! I will, don't worry!"
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I'm stupid, I needed one change to get out, just one action. Hey you, can you hear me pleading? is this the second time you're seeing the real nature of this world?
SO SORRY THAT THIS IS A SHORT CHAPTER BUT I HAD LITTLE MOTIVATION SOOO edit: still short, but I FINALLY GOT THIS DONE ASWELL, IF READING THE NEWER VERSION, BE GLAD! THE OLDER ONE WAS TRASH
