it is terrifying. a tidal wave of overwhelming emotion that is relentless. it reaches down your throat and past your ribcage, claiming your heart in a bloody vice. it is violent and merciless, raging and claiming everything in its path.
it is terrifying. causing you to let go of everything you have every known for a brief moment of reprieve, for a moment of selfishness. it is too strong to fight and too terrible to ever keep. even if you keep your distance, build walls and turn away, it still manages to sneak up on you, holding you in a chokehold and subjecting you to its cruelty.
it is terrifying. a mirror that is held up to your face, forcing your eye to drink in all your flaws. it lays you out effortlessly, stripping you bare and leaving you as an exhibit for the eyes of everyone to feast on. you are nothing to it and it is everything to you. pulling on your limbs like a puppeteer, you are forced to surrender, give up your pride and life. it is terrifying because you would do so willingly just to get a taste.
it is terrifying. more powerful than anything ought to be. it cares not for ultimate power, but rather, yearns to leave destruction and chaos in it wake and nothing more. it is your undoing. it is the very fiber of what makes you. it is clawing and desperate and burning. it is cold and indifferent and soothing. its dialectic nature challenges everything you've known, violates every law of nature, threatens your identity.
it is terrifying. soft fingers ghosting up arms, the clashing of teeth, blacked out eyes. holding the world so delicately in your hands, knowing that you had enough strength in your fingers to crush it if you wanted. stealing strength from your resolve, making your knees waver and breath faint, making your jaw slack and stomach flutter.
it is terrifying. because it is your destruction. and you are willing. you are ready to be defeated, a willing conspirator in your downfall. it is the ending of you, which you yourself have written and signed off on. it is terrifying, because you can't live without it, yet are doomed if you have it. it is terrifying, because while you would give everything for it, it is completely indifferent to you and your pleas and wishes. it does what it wishes. you never have a choice in the matter.
it is terrifying.
it is love
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amorem
Short Storydifficile est longum subito deponere amorem. translation: it is difficult suddenly to put aside a long-standing love // a collection of poetry and thoughts for the hopeless romantics, be you in denial or fully embracing it
