Test subject - sbi adoption au

A fresh start - 8

Trigger warnings - thought of death mentioned, over thinking, self deprecation, not a real event happening I don't know how to describe it (?)

Y/n POV

I sat aimlessly staring out the window , eating some chocolate or whatever it's called, and listened the the music through the headphones.

Nancy had given them to me for the journey, she said it would take my mind off things. It didn't really but I was able to listen to a range of music.

Ranboo was staring at me I could tell.

I said I was fine to him a couple minutes go, but clearly he didn't believe me.

I stared playing with the knife agin. I wasn't hurting anyone, just feeling over the cool metal while, tracing over the eye again and again.

I wondered how it would be to have two eyes. It had been a while and some things I just struggled with.

Who knew that stairs would be so hard to get up and down with one eye.

Nancy didn't liked it when I played with the knife but as long as I didn't do anything irrational then she was cautious but relatively fine with it.

We were sitting in the back of her police car and the rain pounded on the metal plates. Her eyes were focused on the road. 

Since we legally didn't have a guardian or a social worker or any relatives in the country or wanting to take us we would have to go to the orphange.

I just hoped we wouldn't be split up.

I liked the rain, it was calming. It sounded nice and it felt nice. It looked nice, it smelt nice. 

Rain was nice.

I got bored of the knife after a while. sure reading it felt nice but I was bored out my mind.

 "How long is it until we get there." I wined , after all im only a child.

 "Y/n there is over two hours before we will make it ok. Try get some rest you need it." She responded .

 For some reason this just made me mad. Why not bother of us have some rest. Did she see me as weak or something.

I'm thirteen. Why do I need some random adult to tell me what to do?

My emotions cloud my judgement a lot.

I rushed to her from the back unbunckling my seatbelt quickly and I dived at her.

" Y/n WHATT ARE YOU DOING??!! " Nancy almost screamed, so did ranboo.

My knife was already out and I was shouting at her.

That was the problem though.

She was driving the car.

She tried to swerve the viechle out of the way and I suddenly got off her.

We were going to crash. We had to crash right?

Ranboo POV

As soon as Y/n started to breath heavier I could tell something was up. Nancy had just told them to have a nap, I don't know why they were getting so mad at her.