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8.

"Jesus fucking christ! I do not want to deal with you three right now. My 7 brothers are enough to drive me insane."

All three of them stopped and looked at me. All of their faces were very apologetic.

"Sorry."

"Sorry."

"Sorry."

"Just go home guys. I'm tierd and I don't want to see you guys fighting."

"Okay."

"Alright."

"Sorry again..."

They all left my dorm. Quite. Finally. I changed into shorts, ended up throwing up the grilled cheese I ate, showered and now I'm standing infront of my mirror realizing I'm going down again. I'm not eating, when I do I throw up. I sleep and I'm constantly upset. I have a razor blade in my hand ready for it do its job.

"Tori? You here?"

I heard Noriega's voice. I put away the razor blade and left my bathroom.

"I'm here. I just got out of the shower."

"Where are the guys?"

"I sent them home. They are too stressful to deal with on top of my shit brothers."

"Okay, well about your shit brothers-"

"Babe they won't leave!"

Mer popped her head in the door. I looked at her, then I looked behind her and saw my brothers.

"Fuck them. Mer just come in here. Ignore them."

"Easy for you to say. They some how got my number and started texting me when you wouldn't answer them! Now they are out here!"

Mer came into our dorm and closed the door. I shrugged.

"Block them."

I shrugged it off. I didn't even know they've been trying to contact me. I looked at my phone and sure enough, there's loads of missed calls and text messages from them.

"Tori why don't you just go with them for the evening to make them stop pestering you and your friends?"

Nori asked me.

"Because I've never liked them. I hate my for believing they'd come save me from the hell hole I lived in for 6 years! Then for 7 I wished they never show up! Then they did and I refused to get close to them, but I did! Then one of them tried to kill himself because of me! Me! I'm the fucking reason no one is every happy! My parents! My brothers! My fucking abusers! My best friend! My best fucking friend killed herself and I can't help but to think it was my fault! She didn't leave anything explaining why she did it! And my brothers don't actually know shit about me! They think I'm a fragile flower! Yet they sent me away just like their fucking dad did! They hid the fact that our mom was still alive from me! They didn't even tell me why they hated her! But I figured out and damn! I'm kinda glad I didn't meet her! But it would of been nice for once to have my mom there! But no! Because I'm a girl and I'm tiny and fragile! So I won't fucking go with them just so they can't break me another round!"