Wilbur POV) !TW self-harm TW!
It's been a hot minute since I've written in here, so much has happened since last time. I've gone through two partners and im now in a relationship with the best person in the world. I love them so much and im so happy with them. The only downside is that its a long distance relationship. We usually text at least four-five times a day.
I am now in a much bigger school than I was in last year but I honestly don't mind it as much as I thought I would. Ive made many friends in the past three weeks that I have been here. Many of them are in theatre like me, others are in band with me. Lots of my new friends are older than me though which is weird to think that they'd ever want to put time and energy into being friends with someone as useless as I am.
I feel like my idea of my self worth has gotten much worse in the past few months. I've began to feel like im just a weight that everyone has to deal with because they all just pity me. I wish I could tell when people genuinely like me or not, it kinda just feels like they put up with me because they have to.
My self harm habits have been getting much worse, In the past month the longest ive been able to go without it was 3 days. Three fucking days, that so fucking pathetic. Why cant I just be better? Why am I like this, why do I overthink everything. Just. Why...
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Wilbur Angst
FanfictionI have been reading to much angst for my own good so now im writing it. Heavy trigger warnings: SH, ED, mention of suicide, suicide, voices
