Are You Sure We Can Do This? (Xingyun fanfic)

4. Mixed Signals

Chongyun had left Xingqius house probably an hour ago. He lay I'm bed with a singular thought in his head. Chongyun. I love him. I love chongyun. His feelings were eating him alive at this point. It was slowly becoming obvious. The next minutes flew by like hours, days, weeks, months, years they were excruciatingly long.
I can't think like this
I hate myself
I'm so weird
He probably only sees me as a friend.
Friend. Friend Friend Friend Friend Friend.

Friend

Tears flowed down his face. They were hot and stung. They felt like needles running down his skin. They didn't stop. The wouldn't stop. They couldn't stop.
Xingqiu grabbed some earphones and put on some music and eventually went to bed. He woke up with a massive headache and his back hurt. Last night was rough. Even though he felt horrible he still got out of bed and got ready. His mum already left for work so it was just him. He ate his breakfast got dressed and left. His hair was a mess, his eyes had huge bags under them and his eyes were still puffy and red from crying.

Not long after he left the house he ran into Chongyun. Shit. Shit shit shit SHIT SHIT. His mind raced with panic hoping Chongyun wouldn't notice him but who was he kidding.
"Hey Xingqiu what's good?? Huh,, Xingqiu oh my god is everything ok? What happened..?" Chongyun grabbed Xingqius cheeks and rubbed his thumbs against them. Slightly wiping his tears.
"Nothing, I just.." He paused "Rough night." The tears started flowing again
"Oh no.. Shhhh calm down, come here.. Deep breaths" he said as he pulled Chongyun into a hug. Caressing  the back of his head, he slightly rocking from side to side at an attempt to calm him. Xingqius tears just kept flowing.
"Hey I know your not the type to do so but let's ditch, we'll go into town and just Hangout."
"Sounds.. Good" Xingqius breath hitched.
"So it's settled, we're going to town."
Chongyun grabbed Xingqius hand and started rubbing his thumb along his hand
Xingqiu was a blushing mess.

Maybe he does actually like me, he didn't hesitate to grab my hand. But what if he's only doing it in a platonic way? I'm over thinking this again. We. Are. Just. Friends.

Friends.

Once they reached town, they made their way to a cafe. And went in.
"You wanna order something? Perhaps a drink and pastry to ease your mind?" Chongyun wiped yet another tear from Xingqius face.
"Hey, listen its going to be ok there's nothing to worry about."

The boys quickly made their orders and the waiting began.
"Xingqiu would you like to talk about it? You know.. Last night?" Chongyun asked
Xingqiu didn't answer for awhile, he simply zoned out.
"Woah last night must have really fucked you up, I won't bring it up for awhile. How does that sound?"
"Yeah that's great"
They stayed silent for a bit but eventually their food came so they had just had to start a conversation.

TIMESKIP

The sky slowly grew darker and Xingqiu had felt so much better than he thought he would. They were at the park sat under a tree with Chongyuns arm wrapped around Xingqiu and Xingqius head resting on Chongyuns shoulder
"We should start going home soon don't you think." Chongyun yawned
"Yea it's getting really dark" Xingqiu melted into his arms.
Chongyun grabbed his hand and pulled him up "Let's go home"

They slowly started walking home together, as they left the park the wind grew cold and the sky dimmed as the seconds passed.
"This might not be a good time to say but.. I'm scared of the dark." Xingqiu chuckled
"You have got to be fucking with me."
"No, I'm completely serious"
Chongyun fake sobbed and threw xingqiu over his shoulder, catching him so off guard he screamed.
"Oh my god put me down." Xingqiu kicked his feet "PUT ME DOWN DAMN IT"

"Fine only because your cute." Chongyun hesitantly placed him down
"What did you s-"
"nothing."

The rest of the walk Xingqiu was extremely red he didn't even feel the cold wind, whilst chongyun on the other hand was shaking and freezing to death.