Are You Sure We Can Do This? (Xingyun fanfic)

5. Courage

The next morning Xingqiu had a horrible headache. He was still cold from the night before but he had to suck it up. He wasn't missing today for the world.

He was going to confess today.

He woke up extra early in order to get ready and look good. He brushed his hair and did his morning routine, heck he even put his makeup on. He only ever wore it on, you could say, special occasions. This counted as one didn't it?
He set of for school and saw Chongyun stumble out of his door.
"Hey Xingqiu! How are you?"
"Morning Chongyun, I'm quite good"
"Are you wearing makeup?"
"Why? Oh no, does it look bad?" Xingqiu said falling into a panicked state.
"No just, uhm well... You look b-beautiful" chongyun moved Xingqius hair out of his face.
They walked to school together side by side. Engaged in conversation. On the way to school Xingqius shoelaces got undone and he almost tripped. As he started falling Chongyun grabbed his waist and pulled him up.
"uh.. I didn't mean to grab you there.. Are you ok though?" Chongyun scratched his head and awkwardly laughed.
Xingqiu just laughed with him and quickly tied his shoelaces. They reached the school gate and went up to the roof where they were met with Hu tao, Yanfei and Xiangling. A small conversation started between the group but Xingqiu did not listen, nor did he care.
Millions of thoughts were racing through his head.
How would he confess, where would he confess? What happens if he accepts me, what happens if I get rejected? Will we still be friends? Will he hate me? What if he'll never wanna talk to me again?

Eventually the bell went and they all went to their classes Xingqiu and chongyun arrived surprisingly early for class. They went to their spot in the back and sat down. Once the teacher arrived and the class started Xingqiu found him self helplessly staring at Chongyun.
His beautiful eyes, his icy blue hair which scattered across his head, his lips which where a light pink and a slight purple in the middle. His cheeks which occasionally burned a light red, Everything about him was majestic to Xingqiu.

"Uh hey? Xingqiu the teacher is asking to to answer a question" Chongyun poked at his elbow
"Ah! Uhm! I'm so sorry sir, could you please repeat the question?"

This was the first time Xingqiu hadn't focused or knew what to say when getting called on. This made him realise how in love he really was. Was love really worth his academic status? Was chongyun worth it? Fuck yes.
"Chongyun could I draw on your hand? Please?"
"Of course you can" he said sticking his hand out. Xingqiu grabbed his hand and it felt like heaven, his hands were silky smooth and xingqiu tryed getting a good feel of them but there's only so much you can do when they person will feel everything. The first bell went and they walked to their next classes Xingqiu and Chongyun were both in separate classes which was KILLING Xingqiu. However this gave him a chance to think of when to confess and how to confess. He had settled on confessing at lunch when the girls were gone just to save him some embarrassment in case Chongyun rejected him. He wrote some notes with the occasional doodles of him and chongyun, Chongyun and just other things. The second bell went and this was the break time bell he headed down to the library where he and chongyun usually hung out. He noticed him at a table and sat watch him
"Hey YunYun!" he said as he sat down next to him.
"Stop! you not that makes me flustered!!" he quickly hid his face in his hands.
"fun fact, that's exactly why I do it"
He laughed as Chongyun weakly pushed him.

Break ended and they went to class. They sat down at each others spots and listened to the teacher ramble about something they had learned for the past 3 years, it was pointless so the two just talked for the whole lesson. The class felt like a whole year but eventually the lunch bell went off.
Xingqiu stomach started to hurt from nervousness. They walked side by side to the roof. The girls were still in the dinner line so they were eating with just each other. Xingqiu pretty much inhaled his food and patiently waited for Chongyun to finish his.

Chongyun was such a slow eater but he finally finished. Xingqiu took a deep breath of air and braced himself before looking up at Chongyun.

It was time.