We Made It (Larry Stylinson Au) Louis pov

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Harry's pov

I woke up on Friday in Louis' bed. I looked over at Louis and he didn't look very happy. Not that he should have but it killed me seeing him so depressed. I had been staying over at his house for emotional support and both mum and Jay were okay with it.

We finished getting ready and I was glad Louis decided to go to school. He had skipped some days of school because he said it was overwhelming him. We walked downstairs and had breakfast. Well, I had breakfast while Louis didn't eat anything. I stared at him while eating my bowl of cereal with worry because he hadn't eaten a single thing since the funeral and he looked thinner than usual.

I finished eating and wewalked outside to his car. When he parked in his usual spot, he hesitated before reaching for the door. I squeezed his hand comfortingly and he smiled at me weakly.

I held his hand the entire way to our lockers because I was afraid he would run away the moment I let go.  "You go ahead. I'll be there in a few" he said.

"Is something wrong?" I asked, concerned.

"No, I'm just going to the bathroom" he replied.

"Okay but if you're not in class in the next five minutes I'm coming for you"

I watched him walk in the direction of the bathrooms before walking to English alone for the first time in a very long time.

Once I reached the classroom, I walked in and sat in the desk next to Zayn. Louis was obviously going to sit next to me and I didn't mind at all. Zayn moved a bit closer so I could hear him before he spoke.

"Where's Louis? Did he not come today?" he asked.

"No, he came. He's just in the bathroom, he'll be here soon... I hope" I responded.

"Well can I ask you a question?"

"Go ahead"

"How's he holding up with all of this? I mean he just lost his best friend in the whole world"

"He's not all that great. He hasn't eaten at all since the funeral and it worries me a lot because he is visibly getting thinner. And today when I got into the car, I could smell Lottie's scent which made me sad because I wondered how Louis reacted to it"

"That's so sad"

"Yeah, I know. I've been staying over at his house for a while for emotional support but to be honest I would do it no matter the situation, good or bad. I can say he's getting better but it will take him a while to finally accept it. You are right though. Lottie was his best friend. Not even Niall could reach the level of love he had for her. I doubt I could reach that level and Louis is obsessed with me. I just really hope he's okay and not blaming himself for her passing"

"Why would he do that?"

"Before the accident, Louis and I had gotten into a fight about Niall and Gemma's relationship and I ran out of the house and onto the road without seeing the car that was coming. Lottie pushed me out of the way and got hit instead. I don't why she did it because she didn't deserve to die. It was supposed to be me Zayn. But now Louis lost his best friend and it's all my fault"

"No, don't say that Harry. It's not your fault. It was just the situation you guys were in so of course you weren't thinking straight. Also, you didn't deserve to die. Even if you were the one who died, how do you think Louis would have reacted. He would blame himself even more for the accident. So even if Lottie didn't push you out of the way, someone would have died no matter what and Louis would still be sad. But I promise you hardy, if it was you that passed away, I would be by his side at all times just to comfort him because I know you would want him to have someone with him in those hard times. I promise you, I will take care of him in a situation where you can't"