𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐒 𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄

THIRTY-NINE

"What the hell did you just say," Claude said, Her voice got serious she knew what I just said and so did I "I want to get an abortion..." "Like hell you are, What the actual fuck Val?"

"I'm sorry but with Amara pregnant and me too it's not safe and I don want my child to grow up like this"

"Okay Val I get it but no you're not doing this I'll support you in anything else but not this, This is your child and you haven't even been pregnant for too long"

"Fuck Claude stop making this harder" "No Val I'm sorry but if you do this I don't even know but I'm sorry no," Claude says hanging the phone up

Fuck! I need to tell Lorenzo and if he agrees I will do it but I don't know what will happen will I regret it? will I be able to have another child when I'm ready? fuck I don't know

I text Lorenzo to come over, That we had to talk

A few minutes passed and I see him entering my room "Amore what's up what do you want to talk about?" Lorenzo says kissing me on the cheek

I kiss him and push him into the bed laying on top of him "Val?" "Just be, quiet," I place kisses on his neck

"Val your upset I know you are," Lorenzo says sitting up I'm I'm sitting on his lap

"What do you mean I'm fine..." "Talk to me amore why are you upset?" Lorenzo says making eye contact with me

I get up and sit on the chair in front of my bed "Lorenzo I'm pregnant" I say not breaking eye contact, His smile started fading slowly then appears again "Fuck yea!" He yells picking me up

He lays me in bed softly and gently not trying to harm me "Wait Lorenzo you're happy about this?" "Fuck yea I am, I'm going to be a papa with the women I love," He says taking his shirt off

"Wait can we fuck while you're pregnant? Wait let's not do it just in case it's bad for the baby" Lorenzo says getting up

"So you're okay with me being pregnant right?"  I say confused getting up "Yes of course I am," Lorenzo says pushing me closer to him while he grabs my waist

"I just thought you would have freaked out since last time-" I say holding his face 

"Last time I only freaked out because we just started dating now I'm happy with it, I Love you so much Val you changed me and you made me feel what love is" 

I smile and give Lorenzo a tight hug while hugs me back "This has been the best thing that has happened so far" I say holding him tightly 

"Do you know how long you have been pregnant?" Lorenzo asks me letting go of my waist 

"I started feeling nauseous and getting morning sickness like 4 weeks ago..."  I say sitting down "Why didn't you want to tell me amore you don't have to hide stuff from me" 

Lorenzo says bending down at one knee and holding my hand, Hide anything from him? I already am by wanting to get an abortion but I don't want to hurt him he's the love of my life

And he's happy about this and I should be too 

"Just scared Claudes pregnant now Amara shes just a kid and I don't want my child to be scared of everything having to fight at such a young age, I don't want our children to go threw I went threw"

I say tearing up "They won't Amore I don't want them to go threw this too, We have to keep our children safe once they're old enough they can make a choice to continue our legacy or be happy, and have their own life"

Lorenzo says holding my face, That's perfect I want my child to be happy to be able to live their dreams, I wanted to become a graphic designer since I was a little girl, Stupid but I couldn't my life. 

Mama picked my legacy and now I have to live with it till my grave, I want my children to pick and make their own life now being in danger and having to fight every day just to live their lives

That's what I want for my children, To live their life "You're right we won't tell them our secret till there old enough" I say smiling down at Lorenzo 

I hug Lorenzo and he hugs me back, Lorenzo is the happiest thing that has ever happened to me so far, And now having our own child is even better I can't tell him I want to get an abortion and I never will

He first made my life a living hell and now is making it a dream, Even tho we are sinners killers, and probably going to hell, He makes my life feel normal even tho it isn't 

I'll die for this man 

Lorenzo

Val is my soulmate she thought me how to love how to care and how to cherish, I thought love was a stupid feeling before she happened, The hatred I had for her turned into love,

 Enemies to fake friends to partners to best friends and now to soulmates, guess I'm only human after all

Not knowing how to love wanting what my parents had for their children's love but this is way different than their love, They didn't care about anything but their children spoiling us rotten 

Till we became spoiled little brats, I thought they were in love until I found out they didn't give a single shit about each other and just putting up an act for us,

They wanted to see us happy and not have to worry that daddy and mommy were getting divorced, 

My mama died trying to protect the people she loves and so did my papa, That's what I want for my kids the only way I'll allow my death to happen is to be killed for family

I want their love for my children but I want true love with Val and I hope our love lasts till eternity, And I hope my future children find the love they'll deserve.