Dear Husband

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Dear husband,

You forgot the day once again. 6 yrs and not a single year you remembered. I sometimes wonder how people can change so fast and so harsh!

Sidharth, do you remember the first time we met? Or your work has snatched even that memory away from your heart? Well I don't know, I have no inkling. We hardly talk these days, rest aside reliving memories.

Never mind, in case and let me pressume it's a hundred percent possibility that you have forgotten the day, I will make you remember it. Like the perfect better half that I'm supposed to be. That's what you said on our first anniversary right! That it's no big deal that one of us forget dates, the other one should be there to make him or her remember. You were right you know. There's no big deal if a partner or a companion forgets important dates of their lives. The other one should make him or her remember.

But why is it that you never remembered a single important date? Why is it that it has always been me taking the effort and making up for it? Why is it that I was never on the other side enjoying the importance that i expected from you?

Why is it that you don't even take the effort to remember our anniversary Sidharth? Why! Why!

Is it not that important to you anymore or is it me Sidharth?

Do you even love me anymore Sidharth or just dragging this relationship along for the sake of it?

F***! I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I promised I will never question your dedication. I'm sorry. I take back my words. Love or no love from your end, I will keep on loving you till the end of time. Till this heart inside me beats, it will keep on beating for you and only you Sidharth.

Chalo chodo, koi baat nahi, tum ya main, kya farq padhta hai. Let's me take you back to the day it all started...

It was a disastrous evening remember. The sky had seem to burst open,raining cats and dogs. Our cafe was closed but I could not close it because I was stuck. And I forgot to hand the closed board. That was exactly when you had walked it. No burst in, all drenched and cursing!

I wanted to tell you that the cafe was closed but.... I couldn't Sidharth. I couldn't take my eyes off you. You, drenched, the shirt, a black one, pasted to your body, your body, sculptured and so beautiful, your hair dripping water drops.... My eyes just could not leave the beautiful sight in front of them.

Are you blushing Sidharth? I know you are. You always did whenever I used to blurt out such cheesy lines for you.

But let me confess something to you today. Something I haven't told you till date. Sidharth I know this is cheesy and all filmy and I myself hd never believed in the concept, but my dear husband, 29th September, my eyes fell on a beautiful man and my heart was never mine again.

Yes Sidharth.. 29th September 20** and I had lost my heart to you on the very first sight!

And then, you came to me with that freaking melting smile and asked for a cup of Cappuccino and I couldn't deny. I brewed you the best coffee that I could make, hoping that you would love it. And you did. And what was more shocking was when you asked me to join you on the table. I had to deny owing to job protocols but baby my heart lept to my mouth in excitement.

And then you had to insist and I had to accept. But there was just one coffee and we shared from the same one. Different cups but your gesture shattered the last bit of resistance from my within and before the night ended, I was hopelessly in love with you.

Yes Sidharth, love at first sight! It's not a myth. It happened to me. And love, it happened to you as well because exactly a year later, you turned this most beautiful day to one of the most memorable one of our life. You made me your wife!

Fir kya badal gaya Sidharth! Itna pyar itna pagalpan...what changed? Where did I fall short? So much so that this date faded from your heart ever since!

Ab toh rona bhi nahi ata Sidharth. I used to cry each year when I would be spending this most important day of our life, all alone with the best food cooked and served only to myself. But I have turned immuned to you ghosting me Sidharth. But still somewhere this stupid heart of mine craves what if you remember? What if you decide to surprise me or come home like a beloved husband to his eagerly waiting wife?

What if...

But no. Nothing changed. This year too, you forgot our anniversary and here I am like a stupid woman waited for you the whole evening getting a full course meal ready for you, exactly the way you like it. 11.58... 2 mins to go before this day will come to an end.

Happy anniversary Sidharth.

From yours and only yours
Shehnaaz

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Hopefully you will like this different story. Some regrets stay for life. Only few people get to rectify them.

So..Do comment how this is going. I know i have a lot in line to give. Just give me a little time I will catch up. A little worked up in life. I hope u understand.

Love
Sanu