Chapter 11

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by Elytis

by Elytis

Josh's POV

Oli had finally decided to come into after a whole week, I was glad but he was avoiding me. All I wanted was to apologize and tell Oli that it was something that Hannah had planned to do, it was her intention to try and break us up but I couldn't if he was avoiding me.

Oli was looking a lot more worse than the last time I saw him. I just wanted to hug him and make sure he was okay but he would probably just push me away.

When I went over to where my locker was I saw Oli and I walked up to him greeting him, he looked up at me then went to walk away but I grabbed his hand "Stop avoiding me Oli, I know that I probably messed up by letting her do that to me." I said, Oli just scoffed. He then glared at me "Of course you have!" Pain was evident in his voice. I felt guilt rear its dirty head in my direction, filling me up.

"I'm really sorry Oli, if you can forgive me and I don't mind if it takes a while but can we possibly start anew?" I asked, unsure of what his answer could possibly be. His head was lowered in thought, when he looked up, there was a slight smile on his face, "Sure, obviously its gonna take time but we can start anew." He said, I smiled at him happily, pulling him into a hug. "Thank you Oli!" I exclaimed happily. I was expecting him to reject the offer but he didn't. I felt Oli shyly hug back, which filled me up with even more joy.

Later on me and Oli decided to chill, nothing really being said but the silence wasn't an awkward one, it was a comfortable silence.

Oli's POV

I looked at Josh as we just chilled on his bed, honestly I was glad that I was in his presence, just being with him calmed me, making me forget about everything bad. I smiled at him and he smiled back.

We soon ended up talking about random things that came to mind but then he asked me "Why do you wear long sleeves even though its absolutely boiling?" I felt panic begin to rise up within me, "N-No reason...J-Just cold a lot..." I lied, he couldn't find out. No one could.

"Are you sure? Coz I can't help but think your lying to me." He stated and I quickly replied "No! I'm not lying! I really do get cold easily!" Josh just sighed, most probably noticing that I was beginning to get defensive. Josh just stared at me, his eyes silently begging for the truth. I bit my lip, a nervous habit of mine as I debated whether or not I should tell him, m he must've cared for me because if he didn't then he probably would've just left me in the state I was.

"He doesn't give a shit about you!" The voice said, it's words painfully echoed within my mind, causing me to slightly flinch. "I-It's nothing Josh, I promise..." I whispered. Josh obviously wasn't convinced but he didn't push onto the subject anymore, instead he talked about what sort of music we liked and I felt joy knowing that he liked some of the same music as me.

I soon got up to go but I didn't notice that my sleeve had rolled up slightly until Josh asked "Oli...What's that on your arm?" Panic once again rose up within me and I hurriedly rolled down the sleeve "N-Nothing Josh..." I stuttered, mentally beating myself up. "Oh right..." Josh's voice trailed off, not sounding too convinced. I soon walked out, needing to get home.

By the time I reached mine the voice had already returned. "You nearly fucked up big time, you idiot!" It pointed out, even though I already knew that I nearly fucked up. I soon lay on my bed tiredly, just wanting to fall asleep but I couldn't. Ten minutes later I finally fell asleep, glad because I was able to catch up on some lost sleep.

~ A/N: Sorry if it seems as though the chapters are getting worse, not as many ideas are throwing themselves in my direction, but still I hope your enjoying this fanfic! ~