DESTINY

EIGHTEEN

ADVITH'S POV

I was lying in her lap playing with her fingers . When caressing my hair Meera said, "It's time to take that board outside and place it in your study" .

"Hmm You are right but it all feels so wrong He was supposed to do it ...I was supposed to help ." I said closing my eyes

"He was supposed to...yes.... but he can't sometimes fate is cruel but at least he will be happy that his eldest son will be doing it ...his eldest son will be fulfilling his dreams "
listening to her I frowned and looked at her

She smiled and placed a kiss on my forehead and looking in my eyes said , "Didi was four months pregnant when she came at dad's house to meet me . After dinner we all were talking Didi , me and Jiju and I asked them.....How does it feel to know you will be parents for the first time ....and do you know what jiju said?"

When I nodded my head in no she smiled and said ," Meera it's fantastic to be pregnant for the first time... this phase...the pregnancy brought me and your didi closer but I am not becoming parent for first time "

"What do you mean?" I asked frowning

"That was exactly what I asked and he said I am already a father of a very good infact best son I could ask for ...Advith is my first child he will always be my first and favourite child. Advithji these are your brothers exact words. " Meera explained and I hugged her immediately hiding my face in her chest seeking for warmth and protection .

She wrapped her arms around me and held me tight "you were your brother's son he raised you he enjoyed his parenthood and Ansh is our son it's time you enjoy parenting Ansh without guilt of snatching his parents from him" I immediately sat on bed and looked at her shocked I never knew she realised my guilt

"The accident was not your mistake. You were not in that car and didi and jiju were in the car was not your mistake it was fate ....the fact that accident was planned for you and not for jiju and we lost him and didi was our destiny" Meera said with tears in her eyes

"How do you know?" I asked her "Who told you?" I ask her with a fear "does anyone knows about it ? How many people knew exactly what happened that day? I thought I took care of everything and everyone who knew about it " I said running my hands through my hair scared, irritated , angry I don't know exactly what I am feeling right now

"Don't think too much you did take care of everyone who could bring the truth in light . I won't say that you did the wrong thing because they kinda deserve it ... I was the one who took care of didi and jiju's room and in those things were their journals....strangely they both had the habit of writing journals .....i read didi's journal then I couldn't stop myself from reading jiju's journal then after connecting some dots it was not hard to guess...and i did had my talks with the right person" Meera said and I could feel her anger.

"When did you come to know?" I asked her shocked by whatever she told me and thinking how to convince her to let the matter go and let me handle it my way.

"Two months after their death" Meera informed me.

"Aren't you disgusted by me? Don't you Blame me for your didi's death?" I asked her not understanding why would she marry me if she knew the truth

She came and kneeled in front of me cupping my face she looked in my eyes and said , "listen to me carefully you are not responsible for that accident ....it was a last minute change that instead of you didi and jiju will attend that function and that was decided by jiju ....then how are you responsible for that accident" when I did not said anything she said "you cannot insult the love of your elder brother by blaming yourself or degrading yourself in your eyes....he would not want that. You are his son.  You cannot insult him by degrading his eldest son . You are insulting his love, his upbringing, his care for you .....by not valuing yourself ...if you will think yourself as disgust you are actually degrading vikrant rawat ."

I gasped and looked at her with tears in my eyes realising she is right bhaiya would never want me to think like that about myself .

"If anyone is to be blamed it is the person behind the accident and not you ....and gid already gave her the result of her sins " Meera said But I cut her and said sternly, " Meera, I don't want this topic to be discussed again in this house. Never speak about it ....I don't want to hear anything about it "

"You do realise not talking about it will not solve anything?" Meera ask me

"The çulprits will get what they deserve the person responsible is one who planned this and used other as pawn in his game." I said

"Do what you feel right .....because no matter what I know you are protecting your dad by hiding the truth and Vikrant Bhai would have never wanted his family to get hurt but remember one thing if you got hurt I will destroy everything " Meera said and i knew she meant everyword she said

"You did have your talk I guess" I ask or more like said now things are getting clearer to me.

She shrugged and said "I did what I have to do ....for you your family is important but for me my family is only you and ansh"

"Advithji you don't even know how much I respect you, trust you, adore you, love you ....you are everything that a girl would want in her life patner ...a baby would want in his father ....a father would want in his son...a brother would want in his siblings ....don't let someone crimes... some one's sin affect you... someone's disgusted mentality affect you ...."
Meera said and I hugged her tight listening to her.