Camren Lust

Chapter 18

Chapter 18:

Lauren's POV:

The session with Dr. Davis went well. She helped me with my anxiety and explained it. I'm glad camila came with me though, it really eased my nerves. She's such a good person, she's been here through the whole thing and isn't going anywhere. She told me that I should tell Dr. Davis about my self harming, but I'm really scared to tell her. I don't know why, she's very nice and here to help me, maybe it's because I just met her. But, Camila is right. I need to tell her if I want to get better.

I'm in the dorm that I share with my girlfriend and she is getting us some dinner from the diner. I want to avoid being in public as much as I can until all of my visible bruises go away, especially on campus. Everyone knows what happened, and I really don't want the attention. I was getting lost in my thoughts when Camila came back into the dorm, hold a plastic bag containing two meals.

"Hey baby," she said as she put the bag down on the bed next to me and kissed me on the cheek.

"Hey," I smiled, "what'd you get?" I asked

"I got.." she started to pull the to-go trays out of the bag and handed me mine, "spaghetti and meatballs for you, and a caesar salad for myself."

"Thanks," I smiled, and she smiled back. While we ate we watched Law and Order SVU and made some small talk. When Camila was about to get up to throw away her trash I stopped her by grabbing her arm gently.

"Camz you hardly ate any.."

"I ate most of it" she said, knowing she was lying.

"You barely ate half, and salad isn't even that filling," I said. She looked a bit sad all of a sudden. "Babe what's going on?"

"Nothing's going on Lolo."

"Camila.. tell me. Maybe I'm not the strong one right now but that doesn't mean you can't tell me things."

"I know.. it's just.. I get really insecure around you" she told me honestly.

"What? Why?" I moved closer to her and placed my hand on her leg, just above the knee.

"Because.. you're so in shape. You have abs and you're really hot. I'm just.. blah. You're so out of my league," she looked down with an ashamed look on her face.

"Hey, that's not true," I said sincerely. She still didn't look at me so I put my thumb under her chin and made her look at me. "Baby, none of that is true. You are the most beautiful girl in the world. Even if that was true, I'd love you no matter what. You are so sexy, I just want to fuck you all the time."

"Oh really?" she smirked.

"Well.. I totally would.. but.. I don't think I'm ready for that yet since.. Y'know.."

"Babe.. I meant the part about loving me. You've never said that before.."

"Ohh.. I said that?" I suddenly felt myself blushing.

"Yeah, it's okay if you didn't mean it though.." she said, awkwardly looking away

"I meant it. I love you Camila." Her head quickly turned back to me and her face broke out into a huge smile.

"I love you too Lauren," she said. We leaned in slowly to each other and kissed softly, but full of passion, almost like the first time.

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Camila's POV:

Later that night there was a knock on the door. As I got up to open it I could see Lauren turning away to hide her face. It was Ms. Smith.