I am wretched and devine- ft. Andley

Chapter one: changes

"Dear diary,

I know this is kind of strange for a guy to write.. but still. So. I'm Andrew Dennis Biersack. And uhh yeah. I'm 21 years old now. I'm a guy who loves batman. Uhh well. I'm on tour now with the guys. Ashley, Jake, Jinxx, CC and me. Ashley is staring at me. his eyes are perfect brown and his skin is pale but pretty. I think h..."

'What are you doing mister Biersack??' Ashley smiles at me. 'Writing some shit.' I smile back and try not to look that terrible as I feel. 'Shure. But you look upset. Am I right?' Ashley sits next to me and tries to read what I am writing. 'Yes I am upset but you don't need to be concerned.' I stand up and walk to my bedroom thing. I hate the fact that I have a disorder and that I like guys doesn't make my life easy. Ugh. I hate being me.

"He is cute. That is what I wanted to write. Ashley is the cutest guy on earth. Now I'm lying on my bed. So yeah. Being all alone. I feel like cutting but I can't.. I will hurt the guys.. well.. I guess its time to sleep now. Bye"

I yawn. And fall asleep with my diary still on my belly.