I am wretched and devine- ft. Andley

Chapter Seventeen: harms

Ashley is being such a sweetheart since I got hit by that car. But since I came out of that hospital we have more fun. 'Andy!' I see Ashleys hand waving in front of my eyes. 'Sorry sweet... I was dreaming' I kiss him and smile. 'I saw. But I was talking to you.' He laughs. 'Well. Mister Batman. I asked when you want to marry and where.' He is drawing some stars on my belly and his name. 'Not shure. Maybe on stage or something so everybody is like: Omg?! They marry!!' I say in my girly voice. Ashley laughs but seems pretty tired. 'Why do you look so tired??' I kiss him and smile. 'Just couldn't sleep so that explains a lot.' He kisses me and yawns. 'Well.. Than have a sleep Mister Outlaw.' I laugh. He smiles and yawns. 'Well go sleep you Noobcake!' I kiss him and lift him to our bed.(Andy's bunk) Ashley smiles and falls asleep.

As he wakes up he smiles. 'Why are you so adroable?' He kisses me. I smile a bit. I feel the same as when I wrote knives and pens: terrible. 'Andy? What's wrong sweetheart?' He holds my hand. 'Nothing. I go outside for a while.' I kiss Ashes cheek. I get my jacket and walk into the forest. "Sorry." is what I carve into my arm. I start carving and cutting everywhere in my body. I hear Ashes screaming. Fuck. I don't even want to die. 'ASHES! HELP!!' Is what I scream and I collapse..

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Just a short chapter. Having trouble with myself. So well.. Andy harmed himself.. me too 15 pills. but i keep fighting. xx