I am wretched and devine- ft. Andley

Chapter three: anger

When I wake up Ashley is still lying on my chest. He snores and rolls over. I smile. 'Wake up sweet.' I kiss him and tickle him. He smiles and looks into my eyes. 'Morning batman.' he laughs and kisses my cheek. 'So eh. What are we doing today?' Ashley asks and searches for his phone. 'Being bored in the car and tonight we have a show.' Jake says while he gives everyone some energy and coffee. 'God. I hate being in the bus for a whole freakin' day!' I stand up and lock myself in the toilet. I hate it! I feel so fucking annoyed! I start to cry out of nothing. 'Andy? Andy-boo-boo?' Jinxx laughs. 'Piss off!' I smash my vists onto the wall. 'I'd read your diary honey!! I didn't know you were gay?' CC laughs too. 'Shut the fuck up, you dumb!' I keep smashing my vists onto the wall. 'Stop it! You don't know how much you hurt him!' Ashley screams and knocks on the door. 'Andy.. Are you fine? Wait. Stupid question. Can you please open the door?' Ashley says. 'No. I don't want to. Leave me alone.' I look around the small room. I whipe away my tears and open a small box with a razor in it. I just need it.. The razor slowly touches my skin which starts bleeding really fast. After a lot of cuts in my arm I walk back to the guys but I hide my cuts. Ashley is lying on my bed, crying. 'Ashes? What is wrong??' I pet his back. 'How you wrote about me.. It was so sweet..' He smiles. 'Thanks..' I hug him. 'What did you do to yourself sweet?' He stares at the blood on my white shirt. 'Sorry.' I hide my arm again and make a fake smile. 'Sweet.. I will clean the wound.' Ashley smiles and starts cleaning my arm. He writes on my wirst.

"Sweet,

I really care about you.

I love you. Don't harm yourself anymore.

Kisses Ashley<3"