I am wretched and devine- ft. Andley

Chapter thirteen: Surprise

I'm sitting all alone. Its the first of March. It is selfharm awareness day but it feels like first day of my depression. I'm feeling so fucking fucked. 'Andy? What's wrong hun? You look tired.' Ashley tries to cheer me up. 'Oh.' is the only answer I give. I feel so fucked. 'What is wrong boobear?' Ashley keeps trying and it annoys me. 'Piss off.' I say and I walk towards my bunk. I look at the box with my razor in it. Ashley toke it a while ago and putted it in a wooden box and held the key somewhere I hated. So I don't going to put my hands in CC's dirty underwear. So I have to use myself. I start carving into my arm with my fingernail. After a while I can't hold my tears anymore and then I start crying like hell. Jinxx notices. 'Andy. What's wrong?' he tries too comfort me. 'Nothing..' I answer and try to smile. 'I see. That's why you carved yourself, cry and look like you're dead.' Jinxx hugs me. 'Just depression I guess..' I answer and look away. 'Andy. Go to your boobear and hug him. He's crying because of you..' Jinxx smiles. So as stupid as I am I walk to Ashley and hug him. 'What the fucking fuck are you doing?!' he seems quite angry. 'Sorry. I just wanted to hug.' So I walk back to my bunk.

After a while Ashley comes back. 'I'm sorry. I didn't knew you felt this way.' he kisses me and gives me the key of the box. 'Go and open it. I'm quite shure you want what's inside there.' I push it away. 'No. I don't want to cut. I'm strong enough.' Ashley opens the box by himself and gives me a pretty ring. 'Well... Uhm..' He hands me a small post it paper and blushes.

"Will you be my batman forever?"

I smile. 'I'd love to be your batman! But only if you want to be my Hello Kitty!' I laugh and blush. He smiles too. 'I also baked you a nice batman cake.' he smiles. I smile back and kiss his belly. I still like the tattoo(which is a batman sign with above:"Forever my batman" sorry for not putting it in the last chapter) I also got one with hello kitty because.. Yeahh.. because I like food. And so we start eating the batman cake.