The love of my life ~Josh Kiszka~

friendship

Over your time with the boys you have grown very fond of Jake. You just got along so well with him. Now you have officially befriended all of the boys, and it was the best decision. They were just so fun to be around, and now that you all trusted each other it was even more fun. You told them everything and they did the same to you. Stuff you really didn't need or want to know they still told you. Sometimes you would even have to shut them up or just gently put your hand over their mouth.
Sam was the worst about it. He overshared too much. You never truly minded though. You always loved to listen to their stories.

After their show you all walked back to the hotel room. Arms around each other making sure no one fell. Well beside Josh he had a bad habit of wandering or running off when he's drunk, so he was on the ground a lot. However Jake or Danny was alway there to pick him back up .

And you had a bad habit of dissociating after a show or just at night in general. Derealization hits you hard. Jake was the only one who truly understood this.

"You want some water?" Jake asked as you stepped back into the hotel room.

"Yeah, that would be great," you said back. You and Jake were bonding tonight, so you went back to his room to hang out. Not without Josh of course.

"Catch," Jake said, throwing a bottle of water your way. "Do you feel it too?"

"Feel what" josh asked, also walking into the room. "Hey I want one too".

"Get you own I like her better than you" Jake remarked.

"You like my girlfriend more than me. Rude" Josh said opening the mini fridge.

"Yeah I do anyways you didn't answer my question" Jake said.

"What question?" Josh said.

"Not you idiot her" Jake said pointing at you. "Do you feel it?"

"Yeah" you said, sitting on the bed.

"Yeah me too. I do this after the shows sometimes" he said, sitting next to you.

"Do what ? You two are freaking me out, ''Josh said in a weird tone.

"Dissociate," Jake said, then laid back on the bed.

"Oh I do that too," Josh said.

"Good for you" Jake said and dramatically clapped.

"You have way too much energy to be out of it" you said laughing.

"Well I am in it right now" he said.

"That's what she said haha" Jake laughed. You could smell the whiskey on his breath.

"Oh shut up its not that funny" Josh said standing with his arms crossed while you and Jake laughed your ass off. It really wasn't funny, but with the alcohol and out of body feeling it was.

You were of course close with all the boys, and Sammy the first one you were close to. Jake felt different. You, sam, and Danny were so similar. So hanging out with the twins was a different feeling. You felt safe with Jake the same way you did with josh.

Jake sam and Danny were definitely your soulmates platonically of course. Besides Josh he was more than that. Talk about a different feeling. You've never felt the way you do with josh. The feeling you get when he touches you, even just a hand. It's so good to feel loved. Especially by him.

"You know" Josh said, snapping you out of your thoughts. He was talking, but you didn't hear a word he just said.

"Yeah" you said hoping that was the right answer.

"Josh why don't you come sit with us and shut up" Jake said and pointed at the remote.

"Okay fine" josh said, grabbing the remote and handing it to Jake.

"The channels suck. I looked through it earlier." You said looking at Josh as he sat down beside you. You curled up beside him, and he held you tightly.

"Rick and Morty is on, is that show good?" Jake asked you.

"It fits the mood" you laughed as Jake sat down the remote.

"I don't like this show" Josh said.

"Shhhh" you said and with drunken movements you put your hand over his mouth. "It's good josh just wait" you kissed him before turning back to the tv.

You don't know when or how but you woke up, and you were still in jakes hotel room. You opened your eyes to josh curled up on the couch, and Jake? He was next to you in the bed.  You were concerned of how this would affect josh. Would he be mad at you for being in bed with his twin brother? He has never been mad at you before, but what if he was.

As your thoughts were turning into fear he got up off the couch.  He was walking to the bathroom but grabbed your eyes first. You were peering out of the sheets and looking over at him. 

"Oh good morning darling. Are you feeling okay?" He said walking over to your side of the bed, and gently running his hands through your hair.

"Yeah, how did I end up here?" you asked him.

"Oh I put you here. You fell asleep on me and Jake passed out as well. So I gave you two the bed and I slept on the couch" josh said still playing with your hair.

"Oh thank you. You didn't mind me and Jake ... you know" you said.

"No why would I?" Josh asked you.

"I don't know" you said.

"Don't worry sunshine" he said with a kiss on the forehead and walked to the bathroom.