Will You? (Perfect Blend #4)

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I let out a heavy sigh as I let the wind freely blows my hair. I softly closed my eyes and let myself feel the familiar feeling my hometown gave me every moment when I was still living here before. And before the delusion could successfully consume my consciousness, a gentle touch woke me up.

Tinapunan ko ng tingin ang aking kasama na ngayon ay malamyang nakatutok ang mga mata sa akin. Elias — my childhood friend — gave me a comforting smile as he gently messed up my hair.

"I never thought you'll be able to go back here," he started, referring to my sudden decision of going back to my old home.

"Me, neither," maikli kong sagot.

Muling namayani ang katahimikan sa pagitan naming dalawa ni Elias. Tahimik lang naming pinapakiramdaman ang maaliwalas na hapon habang pinagmamasdan ang nagliliparang mga ibon sa aming ibabaw.

"I've heard that they're together." I was the first one who broke the silence.

"I've heard that too," Elias replied.

"Are you gonna be fine with it?"

"Of course, I am," agaran niyang sagot sa aking tanong. "We're already done and I have nothing to do with her life anymore," he continued, but the sound of his voice was contrary to what he was saying. "How about you? Are you sure you'll be fine?"

"What do you mean, Elias?"

"I mean, we will be going to attend your friend's son birthday party this Friday. I'm just wondering if you'll be fine if ever your both path cross... again," he explained.

After hearing what he meant by his question, a deep sigh escaped from my lips.

"I don't know. But I know one thing is for sure, the feeling I had for him way back 4 years ago will no longer be with me. It's already gone like how I let myself out of his life."

I closed my eyes again and feel the bizarre feeling the fresh air gave me. I heard Elias let out a relieved sigh, probably because of my answer. I would feel the same either, especially since I am capable of kicking myself out of the cage where the pain was in it. Especially despite how much I felt for him before, I can move on and move forward without even thinking about his whereabouts.

But that's what I thought. Because the moment I caught a glimpse of him sitting at our favourite spot here in SMC café, my mind suddenly went blank. Lahat ng mga nararamdaman ko noon para sa kanya na akala ko ay hindi ko na muling mararamdaman, ay unti-unting bumabalik sa akin. Pero sa lahat ng mga nararamdaman ko para sa kanya ay mas nangibabaw pa rin ang sakit at kirot na ibinato niya sa akin noon. Sa lahat ng mga alaalang binuo namin sabay noon, ay mas nangibabaw sa aking isipan ang alaala kung kailan niya ako tinalikuran. Mga alaalang pilit kong tinatakasan apat na taon na ang nakararaan.

Panicked suddenly consumed me when I saw him slowly lifting his head to where I was standing. And before our eyes could meet again, I hurriedly turn my back on him and walk my way through the café's exit door.

With heavy footsteps, I clutched my aching heart as the memories from the past hunt me... again. God knows how much I wanted to run towards him to close our distance and punch him with a lot of questions that I've been wanting to ask him before. Questions that have been with me since the day he pained me. Questions that only him could answer.