chapter 15

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MPOV:
when I woke up to my alarm I really didnt want to go to school...but it was the second day so.
I went to take s shower it still stings when the the water hit my cuts,as I was tracing them with my finger a little tear fell from my eye.."no more" i said to myself
once i was done i wrapped the towel around my body and went to get my clothes,
S:goodmorning
M:hi babe
S:why dont you just take that towel off?😏
M:how bout no😊.
S:c'mon babe pleaaaasseee we didn't get to do anything yesterday:(
M:fine
S:really??!
M:no😂
S:I see how it is
omg he always pretends to be mad it's like a daily thing for him
oh well I got my clothes and went back to the bathroom to change
OOTD
•white crop top
•light high waisted jeans
•all white slip on vans
•cream colored cardigan
I left my hair alone
when I came out steven was still "mad"
he was about to walk into the bathroom when I stood infront of him,he tried to go around me but I stopped him.
M:steven
S:hm
M:I love you
I looked up at him and gave him a little smile,he smirked a little
S:I love you too
he was about to kiss me but I stopped him by putting my hand on his mouth
M:morning breath😂
S:right I'll be back
he went to the bathroom and took a shower, while he was in the bathroom I was just laying on my bed trying to catch up on some sleep😌
suddenly I hear footsteps and steven jumps on the bed
M:STEVEN!!!
S:yes babe
M:you scared the shit out of me
S:aw im sorry baby
he came and was hovering on top of me
he just smashed our lips together he started pressing his body towards mine I did the same,

he started putting his hand up my shirt,soon it just came off he wasn't wearing one so I had my hands playing with his hair,as he was about to unbuttoning my pants i grabbed his hands
M:wait
S:what?
M:i uh..I've never ever done this before
S:when are you going to be ready then?!!
he kinda sounded mad
M:well sorry im not ready to have sex yet i mean im 14! why are you getting so mad
S:who wouldn't be mad if their girlfriends didn't want to have sex
M:well I don't think you should be getting mad over this!!
S:you know what!.. I'll see you around
he put on his shirt and shoes grabbed his stuff and left
I just sat there shocked that he got so mad because I didn't want to have sex yet. maybe that's all he wanted after all...😓
I put on my shirt and my shoes and left for school. but wait does this mean we are over? I need to clarify things so as I was walking to his locker I saw him making out with lindsay... I literally felt my heart rip into pieces i quickly walked past them with tears streaming down my face,
S:maya!
I turned around
S:we're over
is all he said and continued making out with lindsay,you know what fuck him and her I hope they both get herpes.
but how..how can he just say it like that? as if nothing ever happened between us?
I went into my first period and immediately put my head down when I felt a tap on my shoulder. it was some boy I've never seen before .
random guy:uh hey my names raudel but they call me weasel:) are you okay?
M:um my names maya and uh not really
W:do you wanna talk about it?
M:not really
steven came into the class he sits next to me but he sat on the other side of the class with lindsay oh well
W:can I sit here?
M:mmm sure
he sat down and the bell rang once the teacher came in she told us to take out our notebooks while she was going to take role
T(for teacher): um raudel and steven back to your original seats please
W:ugh wait for me after class?
M;um sure
steven came and sat next to me but I just looked down at my notebook steven tried to pass me a note but I wouldn't accept it i just gave it right back
I got tiered of it and opened the note
"can we talk after class?".
I crumpled up the note got up and threw it away,as I was walking back to my seat I didn't even look at him but I felt him starring at me i sat down and just started writing random things in my notebook,the teacher had us copy down notes and once class was over I waited for weasel and we started walking down the hallway
W: hey um what's your number?
M:why...?
W:I don't know you seem like a cool girl
I looked at him and he had a little smile
M:uh sure
we exchanged numbers and he walked me to the gym
W:I'll see you later then :)
M:yea... see you later :)
I walked into the gym and the group of thots are in there already,i just walked past them I felt them starring at me I just went to the corner and sat by myself,emily was with her other friends but that's ok because I really just wanted to be alone.
after 2nd I decided to skip so I just walked home and went straight to my room
I took off my shoes plugged in my headphones and put the volume all the way up.
as I was lying there thinking the song bulletproof love by pierce the veil came on this song reminds me of my situation with steven right now especially when it said
"my love for you was bulletproof but you're the one who shot me,goddammit I can barely say your name,i'll try to write it and fill the pen with blood from the sink"
if that just made me start crying so hard

SPOV:
maya wasn't in 4th period I wonder if she went home?
God why am I so stupid,i should have never done that to her, I really do love her but I don't know what came over me. oh she probably hates me so much right now but who could blame her? i was acting like such a jerk to her and she probably think I only wanted her for sex which isn't true, I have to go tell her this
I asked if I could go to the bathroom,i took my stuff with me and ran out of the school.
I ran all the way to her house and called her name
S:MAYA?!
no response
I ran up to her room and opened the door,she wasn't in her bed but when I looked over she had just came out of the bathroom her eyes were so red and puffy i hat seeing her like this especially since im the reason she's crying!
I softened my voice and walked up to her
S:maya..

a/n
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