chapter 18

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MPOV:
i walked home i can hear weasel calling my name but i didn't want to turn around.
once i got to my house i went straight to my room grabbed my earbuds and listened to music. music was the only thing that calmed me down. as i was listening to music the song again by fetty wap came on.great.
"i want you to be mine again baby,i know my lifestyle is driving you crazy,i can not see myself without you......i go out of my way to please you,i go out of my way to see you, i ain't playin no games i need you"
   my music kept getting interrupted by calls and texts from steven 😒
i finally answered because it was starting to get annoying.
*phone call*
S: oh my god maya you finally answered! just listen to me ple-
M:why should i listen to you Steven you don't even trust me?!!
S:i know and I'm sorry about that i don't know what i was thinking.
M:you never seem to know what you're thinking...bye Steven
S:wait ma-
i just hung up.
i can't deal with him anymore, everytime we break up he always says the same thing "I don't know what i was thinking"
like he obviously just doesn't trust me and it hurts that he doesn't because i would never cheat on Steven,ever. he's the best thing that's ever happened to me. i don't know what I'm gonna do without him but this isn't any of my fault
    SPOV:
what did i just do?
   i lost the one person i care about the most,she's literally the best thing that's ever happened to me. i have to go see her.   as i was walking to her house weasel came up to me.
     i really don't need this right now!
"hey Steven !"
"what do you want?"
"just leave maya alone right now, she didn't want to talk to me and I'm pretty sure she just needs time"
"you barely now her, plus i can do whatever i want"
i started walking away when he screamed
"wow maybe it was a good thing for maya to break up with you"
i stopped but i had to go see maya so i kept on walking
when i finally got to Maya's house i took a couple deep breathes to calm down then i opened the door.
as i was walking up the stairs my heart was beating really fast. i really hope she takes me back. i swear I mess up waaayy too many times and i just NEED her in my life.
i got to her room door and i can hear her music from here. i walked in and saw her curled up in a ball on her bed. why do i always do this to her !??
i walked up to her and sat on her bed. she looked over at me and took out her headphones.
"what do you want? " she said in an annoyed tone.
"you, i want you"
"why Steven? so you can go out with me and not trust me and assume I'm cheating on you with every guy i talk to??!!"
"I do trust you maya! but when i saw you with him i just-i couldn't help myself but get jealous."
"Steven this isn't the first time you think im cheating on you"
she's right. and i need to trust her as much as she trusts me.
"I'm sorry maya! please just forgive me. I promise this won't happen again just please take me back"
I can feel tears streaming down my cheeks. i just need to be with her. she's the best thing that's ever happened to me. other than my fans and everything I've accomplished.
"I- I don't know if i can Steven. we've broken up way too many times in these couple of months, and i don't know how much more pain and heart ache i can take..."
she was already crying and i hate making her cry. i hate when she's sad,when she's sad it causes her to do things she knows she shouldn't.
"maya...i need you , i can't live without you"
she looked at me and took a deep breath
   "i can.."
"what ?"
      I didn't  understand what she was talking about
    " I can live without you"
as soon as she said that i felt my heart drop. I looked at her feeling more and more tears streaming down my face.
  as I was about to say something she cut me off.
    "I can live without you...but i don't want too. I don't ever want too."
at that moment i wasn't gonna waste any time. I immediately leaned over to her and kissed her.
MPOV:
Steven just rushed to me and kissed me long and hard. I couldn't help but kiss him back. but i can't i just can't do this.
I pulled away from him and looked him in the eye.
"Steven this doesn't mean we are back together"
"but you just said th-"
"yes that i don't want to live without you,yes but that doesn't mean we have to be in a relationship.."
"so you still won't take me back...?"
"honestly i don't know Steven,this is all just too much for me to handle in one day,give me some time to think please"
   "*sighs* ok but can we at least still talk and stuff ?"
         "umm yea that's fine i guess"
it started getting late and Steven said he had to go home.
   he looked at me and said
"well see you around i guess"
    i just nodded my head and with that he was gone.
   I sighed and just laid back in my bed. oh god i hope things don't start getting all weird. i just don't want to think about this anymore.
   I decided to text weasel to see what he was doing.
  *text convo*
M:hey
  W: what's up maya
M:do you wanna come over , i just really want to get my mind off of everything that happened today:/
    W:yea sure , text me your address
I texted him the address and he said he'd be right over.
   as i was just laying there spacing out i heard a knock on the front door.
   i walked downstairs and opened the door to a very smiley weasel:-)
   "hey" he aid as he hugged me
"aloha" I said with a smile
    we walked up to my room and just decided to watch movies. it was really fun hanging out with him. I feel like I can be myself. and just have fun.
   as we were talking and looking for another movie to watch. my eyes were focused on the TV screen but I can feel weasels eyes on me. I turned my head to look at him. and he said
   "how could Steven ever hurt a girl as beautiful as you ?"
  and with that he started to lean in...

a/n
HEY BABYG'S
I'm sososososososo sorry for not updating I've just been really busy and overwhelmed with things. but more chapters coming soon;-)
   thank you all for reading. love you guys✨💖

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