everything just for you

school

tw!: little bit of bullying, smoking

right now i was standing in front of my house, scared to walk in. i wonder if my dad was home or my mum. i wonder how mad my dad will be when he sees me.

i take a deep breath as i open the door with my key. i looked around the living room and kitchen but my mum or dad were nowhere to be found, i didn't know what to do so i just went into my room. 

i sigh as i realize it's sunday and i have school tomorrow, i sit down on my bed and put my head in my hands. i wasn't ready to go to school, of course i had my friends in it but a lot of people saw me as the nerdy weird girl so they made fun of me a lot. but i was happy to tell Kiara and Noel about Axel.

as i was lost in my thoughts i heard the front door open. i got really scared it was my dad as i heard footsteps coming up the stairs. 

the person knocked on my door "Cassie?" it was my mum, she probably saw my keys in the hallway. "y-yea?" i responded and my mum opened the door. 

"oh my goodness Cassie where have you been!" my mum said worriedly as i looked at her sadly, "i'm sorry" i apologized looking at the ground. "oh Cass don't apologize i know how dad can be sometimes" she says softly stroking my hair. i looked her in the eyes and i felt my eyes filling up with tears.

"where's dad mum?" i asked and she looks at me taking my hand in hers, "he left the house as soon as he saw you left, i don't know where he is right now sweetie" .

he left, again. because of me. it was all my fault.

after a while of my mum hugging me she stood up and went towards the door "i'm gonna go make dinner okay?" she smiles at me and i give her a fake smile, i didn't feel like smiling right now.

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next day

i woke up to my phone alarm, i groan and turn it off. i look up at my clock and see that it's 6am. i had no motivation to get up but i still did.

i made my way to the bathroom and took a shower. when i was done i brushed my teeth and prepared myself for school. i actually never wore makeup so i just got dressed and brushed my hair.

i went downstairs and saw a note, 'i went shopping, have a good day at school'

i didn't have time for breakfast so i just opened the door and left for school.

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i opened my locker and grabbed the books i needed for my first class. i closed it and started walking to my class. i had history which wasn't really my favorite because there was this boy, Brian. he bullied me sometimes with his friends.

i sat down and put down the books. the teacher walked in but it wasn't the teacher i had, it was a new teacher. he looked around 30 and had blonde hair. "hello class, i am now your new teacher" he said and smiled. okay so he was new.

the whole class i wasn't paying attention, all i was thinking about was Axel. my daydreaming was interrupted by a hand on my table, i looked up and saw the teacher, mr.Davis. 

"Cassie do you know what page we are on right now?" he whispers to me which made me shiver. "um" i stutter as he chuckles and says, "that's what i thought, focus Cassie" and walks off.

the rest of the class was really boring and i was glad the bell finally rang. after the last period, i walked to my locker but when i opened it a note fell from it. i picked it up looking at it.

'fat pig'

i knew it was from Brian and i knew he was probably somewhere here looking at me. i crumpled the paper and threw it in a bin.

we had lunch right now so i sat down next to Noel and Kiara.

they were on their phones. i looked up at them "how do i make myself more pretty?" i asked them and they looked at me, Kiara raised her eyebrow at me. "for who?" Noel asked me, "for one boy i met".

"is he hot?" Kiara asked this time, i nodded and they looked at each other before looking at me again. "invite him to hang out with us and our boyfriends today, we'll go to the arcade" Kiara said, "okay i'll ask him" i responded. i took out my phone and went on his contact.

'hey wanna hang out with me and my friends today? if you have time'

i clicked on send and became nervous, i don't know why.

school was finally over and i was walking with Kiara and Noel to Kiara's house. Axel responded to my text saying 'sure' so i asked them if they would make me look prettier, which was pretty awkward but i didn't wanna look weird around Axel, he felt special to me.

Kiara let me in and they sat me down. they pulled out their makeup and started putting things on my face. after felt like hours they were finally done and were now preparing my outfit. i looked at myself in the mirror and i actually looked really pretty. i had an eyeliner with some eyeshadow, highlighter, mascara, lipgloss and other things.

why was i doing this actually? was it because i wanted to or because i wanted to be pretty for Axel? i didn't feel like myself

 "here you go" Noel smirked as she handed me my outfit, i went to the bathroom to change. i looked at myself in the big mirror and smiled softly. i had a low waist skirt and some cropped shirt, they then decorated me with some necklaces and bracelets. 

"you look hot" Kiara told me and i just smiled at her. will Axel like me more?

we were at Kiara's house for a while before it was time to go. we walked to the arcade where Noel's and Kiara's boyfriends were waiting for us. right now we were just waiting for Axel.

he showed up after a few minutes. he hugged me which surprised me a bit, i felt comfortable in his arms. he said hey to the rest and we went inside.

after a while of playing games, me and Axel were sitting outside next to each other while the others were still playing. "you know, you look really pretty like this" Axel smirks at me as i blush from his compliment. "thank you" i mumble as he put his hand on my thigh which made me blush even more. i didn't know how to react because no one ever did this to me.

we were smoking until the rest came outside too after they were done playing. "Cass i didn't know you smoke" Noel said, i just now realized that i am actually smoking. "y-yea i guess i am now" i stuttered a bit, "cool".

after a bit, we all go home. i came by the front door and saw my mum sleeping on the couch, she was probably tired from work. i walked upstairs to my room and lay down on my bed facing the ceiling.

i thought about today. about how Axel put his hand on my thigh. about how he called me pretty. about how Noel called me cool. everything about today was perfect. i looked cool. but i wish i looked even cooler tho..