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tw: smoking

we were walking for a while now, i was never in this neighborhood which kinda scared me. he noticed that i was kinda anxious and said "don't worry i'm not gonna murder you or something" with a light chuckle i smiled. i actually never been to a boys house

after a few minutes, he stopped walking which made me stop as well. "well this is my house" he said as he walked with me inside, "you live alone?" i asked as i looked around. 

"mhm" he mumbled

he sat down on a couch in the living room and went on his phone for a bit, "make yourself like at home i guess" he said as i sit down next to him, watching some boring tv show.  i was getting really tired so i placed my head on his shoulder.

he looked at me and when he realized i was falling asleep he put his arm around my waist which made me feel safer.

i closed my eyes and fell asleep.

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i opened my eyes but closed them again when the sun started to shine in my eyes. after a while of adjusting the light, i finally let my eyes open and looked around the room.

i started slightly panicking because i didn't know where i was but then i remembered what happened last night, i was in Axel's room. after i decided i should do something, i got up and walked towards the door. i put my hand on the handle and pushed the door open.

i walked down the stairs but didn't see Axel anywhere. i walked around the house but couldn't find him, did he leave me here?

but then i realized he had some place behind his house, maybe he was there. i walked to the back door and opened it and yes, Axel was sitting on a wooden chair with a cigarette in his hand. he was looking at the view before his gaze landed on me.

"hi Axel" i greeted him, he just smiled and said "hey" in his tired voice. he grabbed another cigarette from the pack and handed it to me. i looked at it and started thinking. should i?  is he gonna think i'm boring if i don't? would he like me better? 

i let my thoughts control me and took the cigarette, i put it in between my lips and he took the lighter and lit it.

we sat next to each other and talked again, this time i wanted to tell him what happened.

"you know, i will have to go home eventually, i kinda run away when i met you." i said as he looked me in the eyes concerned, "what happened" he asked me.

i explained to him how my dad wasn't really there for me since i was 9, i told him about my dad and mum and about what happened that night. "oh well that's fucked up" he said looking at me, "yea" i responded.

"when will you go home?" i stop at his question, when should i actually?

"i don't know, probably in the afternoon" i replied and he nodded. we sat outside for while, then we finished smoking and went inside. "wanna go out?" he asks me and i nod in agreement. "can i go.. shower?" i asked shyly, he chuckles "yeah" he responds.

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right now we were walking toward a skatepark, not many people were there. he had his skateboard in his left hand and a cigarette in his right. he wanted to teach me how to skate, i was kinda anxious but didn't want him to know, it would be embarrassing.

i still had the same clothes from yesterday which were a white skirt and a hoodie.

when we finally arrived at the park he laid down his board and told me to stand on it, i did as he said. i didn't know how to balance so he took my hands and stood in front of me.

after a lot of falls, we sat down on a wooden bench, still in the skatepark. he passed me a cigarette which i took, i don't know why i started smoking. was it because of him?

"hey" Axel spoke, "hm?" i nodded for him to continue "do you wanna come with me and my friends to a club next week on saturday?" he asked me, "yes i would love to" i replied with a smile on my face but he just nodded and continued to be on his phone. 

that was so awkward why did i smile that way now he is gonna dislike me, i thought to myself as i was overthinking.

"i think i'm gonna go home now" i say quietly but loud enough for him to hear, "oh really?" he said as i stood up. "wait" he says and writes something on a small piece of paper and hands it to me, "text me" he said and smiles as he walks off leaving me there blushing. did he just gave me his number?

this chapter is really short and boring but trust me the next chapters are gonna be better