Super Junior & Snsd Fanfic: It's Hard to Not Love You

Chapter 23: Days Gets Harder

Leeteuk's POV

I saw as everyday, Heechul would wake up with tears in his eyes as he walked to the hospital, everyday, hoping Jessica would come back.

That broke my heart.

I followed Heechul as he walked. And walked.

Sitting at the bench, I took a seat next to him.

"She'll come back," I started to say.

"During these days, do something better in life than just walking. Write a song, a song that's meaningful in your heart," I told him as he got up and ran back into the dorm.

I chased him and realized he slammed his door in his room as I heard scraps of paper.

Heechul's POV

I waited long enough. But, my wait will never end.

I knew what Leeteuk said was true.

I began a song. I don't care if it gets #1 on the music board. I just needed Jessica to hear this.

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.

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One day...

Mornings and Nights came and went.

Finally.

Tears won't come - I thought I'd be okay

So I came to this street for the first time in a while

But I guess it was a mistake

Goodbye - your cold

Goodbye - voice

Is still in the wind that passes by me

I wonder where you are and how you're doing

Are you at the place where my longing touches?

Maybe, maybe are you longing for me with the same hopes?

It's so hard for me without you, everything is hard

In each moment I breathe, thoughts of you torture me

I try and I try but

Your traces come back to life and I'm afraid

Like that awkward day when we first held hands

My days spent alone still feel awkward

Goodbye - your cold

Goodbye - voice

Still lingers in this street as I walk on it

I wonder where you are and how you're doing

Are you at the place where my longing touches?

Maybe, maybe are you longing for me with the same hopes?

It's so hard for me without you, everything is hard

In each moment I breathe, thoughts of you torture me

I try and I try but

Your traces come back to life and I'm afraid

Late regrets, pointless hopes

But still, my heart wants to find you again

I miss you, I'm sorry

I regret being not good enough for you

To you, to you

I want to take courage and tell you those things

But where are you?

Where, where are you?

Are you at the place where my longing touches?

(A/N: This is actually Infinite's Still I Miss You song. I was listening to it so I decided to add it in here. Don't get mad that I said Heechul wrote it. But I'm an Inspirit. And I'm proud to be one saying that Infinite is so talented. Dance on point. Vocals are heaven. And they dorky as heck. :D )

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I watched as my song went on radios. On shows. But, not near Jessica.

Come back Jessica, I began to cry.

I need you.

I miss you.

We only have a few months together. Promotions with both groups will stop. As we separate.

I looked out the window as I saw Yuri holding a rose in her hand as Yesung had his hand on her waist, kissing her forehead.

If only Jessica was here. I'll cuddle her. But. I took my Polaroid Camera, took a picture of the Yulsung couple.

"Yesung!" I screamed at them.

I threw the picture down as they managed to catch it, praying that the wind wouldn't blow at that moment.

They both looked at it as they smiled.

Seeing members happy was what made me happy.

"I am happy because I am breathing. There is no such thing as unhappiness until one stops breathing."

The times Jessica was gone, I felt as my breath slowly faded away. Until I stop breathing.

Author's Note:

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