Elia's POV
I watch him leave with Brooke hand in hand and my confidence flies out of the window. It felt soo good having him staring at me when I first walked into the kitchen. I thought when he followed me outside we'd have a conversation and he'd consider giving us a try. But the second that she wolf Brooke calls him, he lets her take him away from me. I have to calm myself down, my wolf wants out and I can't let that happen. She's dangerous. I close my eyes trying to slow my racing heart. When I first got my wolf I knew there was something different about her. Any type of negative emotion and she's ready to kill. I am constantly trying my best to keep my mind happy and at peace so she stays at bay. I am terrified of what would happen if I let her out. Since that day that haunts my nightmares, I've been struggling to contain her. My father never really forgave me for what happened. I didn't know my wolf was powerful enough to take down a full grown man. I was only a kid when I first shifted. All I saw when I shifted was red. It was blood. His blood. My father still tried his best to hide what happened so the alpha wouldn't be aware of my problem. I'd be an outcast if anyone found out I attacked my own father and gave him such deep scars that will never heal.
I need to relax, She's waking up. I take a deep breath and think positive thoughts. It's okay. He's only friends with her. He told me loud and clear that he needs space so it's not like he lied to me. Or like he's hiding things from me. I should go home, there's nothing for me here at this party. I feel my wolf fading into the back of my mind. I continue to justify his behavior to myself on my walk home until I no longer feel my wolf. Once I'm sure she's gone I let out all of my tears. Sadness is the only thing I'm allowed to feel. I can't feel anger, jealousy, resentment. Or any aggressive thoughts without that overwhelming terrifying feeling of my wolf surfacing with killer intentions. This is how I got to be the happiest girl in school. I have no choice.
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Overwhelmed and underestimated
FantasyAll of Elly's life she's been the type of girl to put everyone before herself. She's built up a reputation for being too kind, which in turn was considered being too weak. Elly would always kill them with kindness. Elly didn't have a mean bone in he...
