Overwhelmed and underestimated

Hurt

Aries POV

What Elia said keeps replaying in my head over and over again like a broken record. Her heartbroken face stained in my memory. I didn't mean to hurt her. I just wanted to be a good alpha. The more I think about it she may be right. I walk on egg shells around my peers because I am scared I will be called a bad Alpha. A scared Alpha is a weak one. I was soo focused on respecting my pack that I didn't think of the possibility that maybe they don't respect me. I must have subconsciously hoped for a strong Luna to make up for my lack of ability to discipline my pack when needed. She is absolutely right. I need to be strong for my pack and the only thing I need from her is to be what she already is. A caring person who's kind to the pack. I am going to apologize to her tomorrow and hopefully she forgives me. 

Elias POV

The next day. 

I don't want Aries looking at me. I don't want him near me. I don't even want him breathing near me. My wolf is filling me with anger and rage. I could tear his heart out right now. I cried myself to sleep feeling worthless because my own mate doesn't want me. Casey keeps asking if I am okay but I am ignoring her. Everything annoys me right now. The sun, The color of the hallways and the sound of the class bell. The day just started and I already want to leave. I see Brooke smirking at me from across the hallway and give her a death glare. Her eyes widen and she looks away quickly. "Elia, I love you but you aren't being yourself today. Call me when you get back to normal" Casey says while walking towards James. I slam my locker and see Aries making his way towards me. I turn to fake looking for something in my locker hoping he'd just walk past me. "Elia can I talk to you?" Aries asks me. I don't even spare him a glance. "I'm busy" I tell him coldly. "It's important" I can feel my eyes turn into slits. "Nothing you say to me right now is important enough to interrupt what I am doing." I turn to glare at him while closing my locker. "Why are you acting this way" He looks frustrated with me. Good. Kelley, one of his friends comes up tp him and pulls on his arm. "Hey Aries, I have a question for you" Aries yanks his arm away from her. "Kelley, You have to start respecting me as an alpha and not overstep my personal space." Aries is giving her a stern look and my anger disappeared. I've never seen him get so angry before. It's honestly a turn on. Kelley apologized to him with a shocked look on her face and walked away. "Ok I'm listening" I gave him my full attention ready to listen to him. "You were right Elia. I should be the backbone of this pack. I shouldn't put that on you. There is nothing wrong with you." I sigh but I don't interrupt him. I don't know where this is going. "Can we give us a try? I will stand up for you from now on and I promise to make you happy. I have to change. Not you. You're perfect." He's giving me hopeful eyes and he reaches for my hand but I pull it away and he frowns. I can't let him make me feel that way again. I lost control and tore up my bedroom last night. I have to stay away from him. "No Aries I think you were right. It's better if we see other people."