Chapter 5 - Second Place Is First Place For Losers

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SEBASTIAN'S POV

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SEBASTIAN'S POV

I really like to win.

I don't think I've mentioned that before so please allow me to say it again.


I really like to fucking win.

More than anything.


That euphoric burst of joy- the excitement of just knowing your better than everyone else when your standing on the highest podium- holding the biggest trophy that you've ever seen in your life... is my idea of heaven. 

And I just don't mean winning at games, because if you really think about it- life itself is just one big competition. Right?


I win when I get straight A's, therefore placing me among the smartest guys in our year. 

I win when I'm the best dressed person at a party.

I win when I'm the first to grab my mom's freshly baked brownies from the kitchen counter. 


Whenever I view something as a competition- I put my heart and soul into it. Even if it's just putting dishes back on the rack. This is simply just the way that I live my life- judge or not. 



I'm a winner. 

And I will to go any sort of length, to make sure it stays that way.



I stood on the edge of the football field, my arms folded, shivering from the chilly September wind. 

After the events- that occurred last week, I was on the fucking edge. Hooking up with that annoying idiot, was probably one of my biggest mistakes. And then he had to go around saying he took my v-card.

I internally cringed as I took several deep breaths. I had to resist every single urge in my body to not strangle that fucker! 

I remember yelling at him and giving him a piece of my mind- and it seemed to have worked because he hasn't come near me since. No unnecessary comments, no back talk- not even a random shove in the locker room. 

But was it worth it? I'm a weak idiot who gave into the sexual temptations of his arch nemesis! I seriously don't think I can forgive myself for this. Am I being a titch bit dramatic about this? Probably.   

I've managed to block out every single second of our... moment in my mind. Almost like it never happened.

Because it didn't.

I didn't get fucked from behind by Marco Hernãndez. 

That never happened. I physically refuse to believe that it did.

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