You still hooked onto that smile and eyes following me while I tried to be agile
Maybe I should've warned you, this isn't funny because my heart is too fragile...
Back at my spot, I kept myself busy with the unfamiliar music and food
Watched the others intoxicated by alcohol while I was too but by a person's presence
We paraded downstairs as the night ended, a friend locked arms and gave me her love life gist
Shivers ran down my spine when out of nowhere you joined us and held my wrist
Standing outside the edifice on that chilly night, I was unclear about how to react
You continued to hold my wrist and the majority passed eyes judging us at that moment
My legs wobble and I latch onto your arm, maybe it was the booze
However, your lady love rushes to my mind, and I'm not just another option to choose
I moved away but not those stares for whom this sweet touch seemed like a scandal
Although it seemed like a lot there was nothing here to begin with
Just another classic of a simple girl falling for the charms of an angry young man
With one eye on me, you persist to hurt with words, reiterating your weekend date plan
We capture the night in a picture with beautiful smiles and somehow again I end up next to you
All share their goodnight and tight hug goodbyes but this time you walk past and miss me
This seemed like a comeback from earlier and what am I to make of this confusing night?
I wanted to stay so bad and question you 'Do you think toying with me like this is right?'
Refusing to humiliate myself any further, I take a seat inside the cab
Looking out the window breathing in the blowing wind and gazing at the lights
Questioning the worth of all this pain, I stop and pull my phone out right away
Walk into a friend's house, typing a text that your surprise mention had me in disarray
Usually, there would be guilt after the tap on 'send', but surprisingly there is no regret
For I felt your actions were questionable that rightfully deserved an answer
Probably in ten seconds, I could see him typing and typing with a sudden halt
Damn you wifi! The wound is deep enough and in no need of any additional salt
All at once, my phone lit up yet the fingers refused to pick it
The mind clearly not ready for an 'I am sorry if I lead you on and we are just friends'
But the devil does its work of seeing the reply and that's when I found your trick
'I WAS JUST JOKING AROUND' Gosh! You're such a prick
I knew you are capable of a joke and your poker face doesn't give anything away
But how was I to trust if this isn't you gambling with my feelings?
The next text arrives calming me halfway saying 'You would've known for sure'
Followed by a 'Don't worry :)' I guess my heart just dropped to the floor
A few funny dialogues were exchanged with a sleep-tight in the end
My mind and words now turning slurry by the second
I smile thinking the night could have ended way worse
Probably right now is not the end for us!
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If You Only Knew
Romance'If Only You Knew' are just moments with that certain someone to whom my side of the story was never expressed. It's a space you might or might not relate to but let's just say it's a feeble attempt at putting my thoughts into words. It's more than...
