the ballast of life // narry (slow updates) boyxboy

eleven

I SOUNDED SO FORMAL IN MY LAST AN IM LAUGHING AT MYSELF

(continued from where last chapter left off)

harrys pov (unedited)

I woke up with rain splattering on my face, it wasn't that heavy, though. I sit up straight, ignoring my throbbing head. Niall is still asleep and about two or so meters away from me. My shirt is soaked and I look down to my jeans.

"Fucking.. Dragon." I spit out, kicking a scary-ass looking lizard off my leg.

I once again am fed up with my hell-hole of hair as it sticks to my face.

I look around thinking where the fuck are we as the memories from last night come back to me and I laugh. I pull my phone out my pocket (which is a bit wet) and see that it is nine in the morning. Subconsciously, I move closer to Niall and fall asleep again. The next time I am woken is by Liam. I groggily try get up but I notice Niall is clinging to my arm, and from Liam's point of view we probably look like a couple of faggots.

"You guys are crazy, really, you could've stayed in a spare room or something. You didn't have to sleep in the rain." Liam rambles on as we go inside. I didn't notice until now that I'm freezing and goose bumps line my skin.

"We we're drunk anyway, no biggie." Niall replies, he looked paler than usual, making his dark tattoos stand out more.

"Happens all the time." I add, trying to rid my hair of moisture with a towel Liam gave to me.

I drop Niall off at his place and as soon as I get home I jump in bed.

The next day at school was more eventful than most - we had a newcomer.

His name was Ed. Niall and I took an immediate liking to him, and that doesn't happen often. He moved from Hebden Bridge, where he was openly bisexual. Zayn and Louis gave him a bit of grief but Ed didn't even flinch.

"Are you okay?" Ed asks after he notices Niall staring at him weirdly. It was just us three at the moment.

"Yeah, all good, mate." He replies, nodding his head. We are sat around a table and we've just been talking for a bit.

"Then what's your problem? Don't like gay people?"

"N-no. I don't care if you're- whatever." Niall put his hands up in defence

"Well, Haz has been talking to me the whole time and you've been a dick." Ed spat. What the fuck? I thought this kid was nice. Aren't gay people supposed to be happy all the time?

"Don't call him that." Niall said, half mumbling. Haz was what Niall had called me since primary school, no one else has been allowed to call me that. Ed looked between the two of us and his eyes lit up.

"Are you gay?"

"What? No." I said at the same time Niall said "no, no, no."

"Yes." Ed smiled.

"No. We're not, I only said that because he's my mate, no one else calls him that, everyone knows that." Niall almost growled, his head low.

"Alright, Alright." Ed laughed, "but you've made out before, yeah?"

Niall rolled his eyes and said no while I said yes. He half glared at me.

Ed laughed, "sorry boys, I'll leave you alone now." He started to walk away but I stopped him.

"listen, yeah? No one finds out about this." I say.

"Got it." He flashed us a smile.

**

Niall and I walk around to the back of school, which is our usual hangout.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" He broke the silence

"What?" I asked.

"What if he tells everyone?" He was low-key starting to panic.

I shrugged, "who cares? They'll believe us over him."

"Everyone loves him! He's already so popular and all the girls are suddenly obsessed with gay people and why would you- fuck. Of course people will believe him" He stated to get angry. I let him stand there on his own for a bit but then he started ripping posters of the wall.

"Calm down, we'll figure out a way, we always do. It's not even a big deal.." I say, mumbling the last part and leaning against the wall, crossing my arms.

"Not this time." He mumbled as he turned around, punching the wall next to head. I didn't flinch. "Fuck" he whispered under his breath.

I uncrossed my arms and held his shoulders, "what's the big deal? Ed is out, no one hates him."

Niall hissed, "First off, I'm not actually gay," He tilted his head in a way that said he was pointing out the obvious. "And second, Zayn and Louis would hate us."

"They already hate us." I said. Niall rolled his eyes. He started to play with his lip ring, and I think I was staring too intently. He frowned and open his mouth to say something but instead I kissed him, preparing myself for the worst.

He was in shock at first (like I guessed), so I kissed harder and eventually he did too. Honestly I was expecting him to just push me away, but this is a better option.

The feeling seemed too familiar. My whole body was on fire. Even though he was shorter, he managed to push me up against the wall and then grab my hips. My hands were already tangled in his hair, I moved one hand down so my fingertips would lightly trail up and down his left arm.

Too quickly, it ended he pushed me off and we both gasped for air. I realised too late that I shouldn't have done that.

"Fuck.. sorry." I said, avoiding eye contact, not knowing what to do with my hands so I just ruffle up my hair a bit.

"Don't do that." Niall said, taking a small step back, I nodded slightly. He stepped forward again. He studied my face for a few seconds before turning around and walking away.

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a/n

Im so so so so so so so so sorry I havnent updated in ages and now that I have I give you a crap little chapter that isn't even 1000 words long I feel so bad.

But on the other hand thank you all so much for over 6k reads and 400 votes, I will try updating more regularly but its hard because I always get writers block but I WILL TRY.

you guys wanna know what happened so we had this sub teacher and he was like really weird, and earlier on he told one of my friends to 'hold her pen like she holds her men.' and everyone was like tf. So I just come back from lunch and no one told me my shirt was unbuttoned (it was an accident idk how it got unbuttoned) and I wasn't wearing anything underneath AND THEN THE TEACHER LIKE LOOKED AT ME THE LOOKED ABOVE ME AND WAS LIKE 'PPHHH ILL LET YOU GO OUTSIDE TO FIX YOUR UNIFORM.' and I didn't know and when I got outside I was like omg. when I got back inside my friend said that HE PROBABLY THOUGHT I WAS TRYING TO IMPRESS HIM OR SOMETHING OMG.

also I added a cute little edit on the side and SEE HOW I PUT MATCHING NECK TATTS

also also, wattpad privated chapter nine so if you want to read the small change I added to that you'll have to follow me to read that.

I love you all -alexo