The Poems Of Existence

This Poem Is Not About You

This poem is not about you.
It is about the feelings I once had.
The ones which keep me alive at night.
The same ones which killed me thrice.
The feelings I never wanted to let go,
Cause I thought that if I did, you would disappear.
The pain I chose over sanity,
Cause I thought it was better to suffer in love than not to love at all.
The many times I chose to remain in your light because I thought it was better than darkness.

This poem is not about you,
But the hardships I've faced.
The many times you could have said something but said nothing.
The 1000 hellos you never replied.
The million butterflies you starved and left to die.
The questioning of my own existence from the way you ignored me.
The sudden epiphany that there will never be a 'you and me'.

This poem I don't want it to be about you.
I want it to be about me,
And the woman i can be.
The person who suffered but who lived and thrived.
The girl who despite it all choose to unlearn the hurt.
I am she, the one who learned to be unashamed of loving.
The one who sings lullabies to her scares,
And connects with her soul.
The one who placed you on a shelf,
Not because I admire you but because I see who I became in you.

This poem is not about ex lovers.
It is about new ones.
New people we are getting ourselves ready to love.
The ones we never thought we deserved and same goes for them.
The ones who are too perfect but who will be ours.
The people whom we will build a future with,
And birth memories.
The one who will come with a glass half full,
Not to suck our souls out of us.

This poem is not only about romantic lovers.
It is about the ones who choose whoever and however in tenderness.
It is about people who simply loved and got hurt and are still loving.

This poem is not about him.