I love you most / Sanzu Haruchiyo x reader

Feelings

Y/N'S POV
I stare at Haru while he wraps the bandages around my foot. It's an odd feeling. We both just confessed our love for each other and now we're sitting in silence. It almost doesn't feel real.

Haru sighs.

"I'll tell you more about what happened."

I'm glad he's opening up more and talking about how he feels.

"Mikey gathered us all and announced that Toman was disbanding. I tried to find him afterwards but it was like he had just vanished. No traces of him anywhere."

"Oh..."

This is what Mikey was talking to me about. He knew that he could hide himself but also knew that Haru wouldn't stop looking for him.

Haru perks up slightly.

"You wouldn't happen to know anything about his whereabouts, would you?"

I don't know where he is but I have an idea of what he might be doing. Though, I could not let Haru know as I promised Mikey I wouldn't tell him. I also have to keep the fact I met Mikey hidden from him. All for his sake.

"No, I don't know anything."

Haru stares at me intently. Sweat starts to form as beads on my forehead and my breathing gets heavier. I concentrate on my quickened breathing, trying to slow it down, as to not arouse any suspicion from Haru. I keep my eyes focused on his piercing ones.

"It's okay." He finally laughs. "Why would you know anything, you and Mikey have never been close so I don't see him try to talk to you."

Phew.

"Unless you do? But you don't right?" Haru stops all movement. His pupils somehow get even smaller giving him an almost eerie look.

"Haru, I really don't." I confidently state.

"I thought you wouldn't." He immediately relaxes and gives a genuine smile.

He finishes bandaging my foot and I slide my sock back on. What was that just now? He seemed so menacing. It shook me to my core.

Out of nowhere Haru brings me into his embrace.

"I'm sorry, It seemed like I was doubting you. I'm just worried about Mikey..."

I reciprocate his embrace.

"I know. You care a lot about Mikey and not knowing where he is scares you. That's why you're becoming more skeptical of what you hear."

"Yes, exactly. I love you and would never assume the worst of you."

He tightens his hug.

"I love you too Haru. I'm sure Mikey's fine, there's no one stronger than him."

"Yeah he's the strongest of all, i know he'll be okay on his own for a bit but I still want to be with him..." he looks down to my eyes while letting go of me. "Not more than I want to be with you though."

I blush and hide my red cheeks with my hands which makes him chuckle.

"What are you being shy for now? You were fine holding me and telling me that you love me, but just that makes you all flustered?"

"I wasn't expecting that okay?!" I yell back but try and contain my own laughter.

We both laugh together at my shy state. I sigh after the laughter quickly dies down.

"Haru, you know way back when we first met again?"

"That wasn't that long ago but yes?"

"Do you think you would be better off not loving anyone?"

"I said I want to be able to love people but sometimes feel like I didn't want to. At the time I was unsure of my answer, but now I am sure."

"What's your answer?"

"Shouldn't that be obvious?" Haru asks with a blank face.

"Well I'd still like to hear it! What if I assumed the wrong answer?!" I explain my valid interpretation with a raised tone.

"I know I can be mean sometimes but I'm not that much of an asshole that I would say I love you and then say that I wish I couldn't love anyone!" Haru retorts back.

"So you're happy you love me?" I ask with a confused look.

"YES!! I'M HAPPIEST WHEN I'M THINKING OF YOU!" Haru finally yells out, having had enough of my, admittedly, dumb questions.

"And not Mikey?" This was probably an even dumber question but it just rolled off my tongue.

"I don't know what you think of me and Mikey but it's not like that." He pulls me back into his embrace, maybe even tighter than before. "I've had enough of your questions. Stay here and don't say anything more. I love you and you love me, and I'm glad you're the one I'm in love with."

I unconsciously start tearing up slightly at his reassuring words.

"I'm really so happy that I fell for you Haru."

"Good. That's all you need to say."

He leans in and plants a kiss on my lips.

It makes me feel guilty. Even though hiding the conversation with Mikey from him was for his own good, it tugs at my heart when I see him so upset over Mikey's safety. Should I tell him? Maybe I should...