Memories

Chapter 5

Rachel's pov
Me and Steph were in the pub drinking wine and vodkas when the conversation about me and Chris came up so Steph said tell me all right I said so today after lunch I was sitting in Chris's classroom and I suddenly realised I don't love Eddie I love Chris but like deeper than I've ever loved before so what did you do Steph said smiling well I said going red I ran out straight into you then we got into the cow situation so I said grantly bought a cow oh she said excitedly well grantly said to me and Tom he won a prize in a auction and he went to collect it and turns out he didn't win it he had to buy it or go to prison what I said shocked what are you going to do about Chris she said smirking well I was going to let it play out on its own we got majorly drunk and started on the karaoke we partied till 2 am I slept at stephs.Iwoke up the next morning at 9 a bit late shit I said waking Steph were late oh god she said shocked we arrived at school Steph dressed in different clothes but I wasn't I text Chris to leave his spare outfit in the office I made sure to go in the office when everyone was in lessons I took a shower in the girls changing rooms and put on Chris's black joggers my sports bra and Chris's black hoody my fluffy socks and converses I left my hair down and went to the staff room where Chris Audrey Eddie and Kim were morning I said morning rach Chris said before hugging me how were the kids I asked good Mia wants to become a astronaut when she's older Chris said good for her I said smiling wait I'm confused Eddie said suddenly why I asked him well they are your kids why weren't you with them last night he said quite rudely I was out with Steph and stayed at hers last night I said tersely what about the kids Eddie said petulantly they were with their father i said loudly are your sure he's their dad you no you like to lie Kim spat out suddenly before I could react chris spoke how dare you Kim if you weren't a woman I'd hit you he said before I pulled him out the staff room wanna annoy grantly I said to distract him sure he said before grabbing my waist tightly I felt myself shiver he felt good his hands oh god we went into grantlys class and sat at the back he was teaching year 10 so we decided to heckle him. You ok he whispered to me halfway through grantlys lesson yea I whispered smiling after the bell went I decided to sit outside in the sun as Chris had a class I heard Eddie behind me hi I said facing him rach he said before sitting opposite me I'm sorry he said after a while what for I said getting nervous for going with Melissa for the snide comments for all of it rach I love you I never stopped he said stop I said before he could say anything else I loved you once but not anymore ok I'm happy and please just let me be let me move on your hair looks good he said before leaning over to touch it that was when I flinched I hadn't done that for a few years I looked at eddies face he looked angry and I felt myself go into a panic attack suddenly I could see max instead of Eddie no please I said running into the school building I tripped and landed in the corner of the wall by the main hall I seen max coming closer no I yelled max I don't want it please suddenly I heard chris his voice rach it's me chris rach cmon breath in and out in and out after 10 minutes I finally was me again chris whispered terrified rach he said opening his arms I jumped into them hiding my head in his chest smelling his aftershave I've got you he said in my ear I calmed down a few minutes later only chris Eddie and Kim were standing there chris helped me up before pulling me close to him I'm sorry I said to Eddie no I'm sorry Rachel I didn't mean to do that it wasn't you it's you mentioned my hair and when you touched it I had memories of something awful I'm sorry I said before chris pulled us away to the office we sat on the sofa in the office whose covering your class I asked him Audrey he said before pulling me closer I'm sorry I mumbled in his chest no he said pulling me on his lap basically that pig hurt you and he left you with all kinds of triggers and I don't blame you rach it's not your fault he then hugged me so tight but it felt great thank you for putting up with me I said feeling like a burden no he said your not a burden he said as if he was reading my thoughts your my best friend ok your my universe Rachel and I'm in love with you he said facing me really I said smiling because I'm in love with you as well we were staring at each other for minutes before we kissed oh got it was like fireworks.