Panchali sat down facing him with a good amount to distance between them and karn wondered will there even be a day when the gap of not touching go way or when he could smell her scent or when they both would spend the time between the days and nights together.
Karn started speaking and this time he know she would not interrupt him, yagnaseni I want to say a lot but I dont think I have enough words. First I am sorry, cant express how much sorry I am. Why is it like this? Is this the fate? Does this have to be like this?.
I was angry Draupadi and hurt for you were the first women who caught my eyes, I could not believe myself when you innocent doe eyes found me. I felt something new for the first time in my life and I loved it. After being denied in everything for all my life , all those pain flew away when I knew I would get you. The two days before your swayambar would always be one of my most happiest memories, you looked at me like you knew me all your life. From the first moment you looked at me, you looked right into my soul and I felt like an open book to you. Soon, very soon it was like my illusion broke, I felt as though all that happened in that two days were a mirage. Even when I know you did it for a reason It hurt a lot, now that I know the reason should I take that the universe itself did not want that to happen?
Panchali with eyes full of tears spoke I did know you karn for all Govind told me were the qualities my future husband would hold and that he would be handsome she paused and karn let out small laugh. He was over the clouds with joy even with all the sorrow, his yagnaseni called him handsome. She continued when I first saw you, I knew you as the great archer who made my heart flutter with his first look but after I heard about you I felt a connect to you for both of us were neglected. Even after breaking both of hearts and walking away, even when I tried to bury it deep inside myself you were always my ray of hope.
Karns eyes were filled with tears but he did not let them fall, he was just looking her she was a precious gem that should have been preserved and could not believe what he heard, that was something he yearned for years, there would have been a 100 ways of which he imagined this but now was definitely not one. Still his heart was beating so fast that I might even fall out any moment, he even thought that people around could hear it. His heart pained with the untouchable distance that separated them.
The tension was in the air, people and the hero and heroine themselves could feel it as they knew what was the next topic. Karn could not speak about it, there was a huge lump in this throat, one thing that haunted him till this day was the look she gave him when he called her a whore. Even in his last moments before dying he remembered the last thing he saw those three looks she gave him the innocent, understanding and love filled one before her wedding, the one of betrayal and un bearable pain in the dyut Sabha when he called her a whore, the last one was actually the last one saw before dying it saw pain and the one where she reached out for him, one with both happiness and pain.
Swallowing the invisible lump in his throat Karn spoke
