Lauren's Letters (Sequel To Hurt By The One I Loved)

Say Something

Emily's POV

After reading almost all of Lauren's letters, 31 to be exact, I was heartbroken. Even more then I had before, I had to read how hard she fought for her last few months, and how she dreaded life, and I felt so bad, I mean, I may not be the best with boys, and I may be in love with someone who loves someone else, but I didn't have it as bad as Lauren. I'm gonna miss her, so much.

Today I had to give the letters to Alanna, then she could read them, and then pass them on to the next person. Life was gonna suck, I lost a friend to suicide, I lost a friend to his dickish ego, and I might lose a friend over the way she's acting. But, I hope Alanna will pull through and be here for me, I really need her.

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I got the letters, and my coffee, and walked out of my apartment, into rainy New York, and walked to my silver Mazda (only car I could think of rn tbh 😂👏🏼). I put the letters in the passenger seat, and got into the drivers seat, and drove off for Alanna's apartment.

I got to her apartment at about 12:50 with the New York traffic and all. I was listening to one of Lauren's CDs, she always left them in my car, she left everything in my car. I started crying when this song came on, it was one of Lauren and I's favorites. It was Say Something by A Great Big World it was the version without Christina Agularia. We loved it so much, it was amazing. But then I remembered how sad this song made me, especially since I didn't have my Laur. I sang the last chorus, and that's when the tears came.

And I...will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

And with that I was crying, crying hard, crying harder then I ever had before, the realization is just now hitting me, 2 months later, I looked at the passenger seat, Lauren is gone. Gone and she's never coming back. I can't. No one else understands what I'm going through, and that I need time.

After crying for about 20 minutes, I wiped away my tears, and I grabbed the box of letters, and went out into the rainy streets of NYC. I locked my car doors, and walked down the block to Alanna's apartment. I got into the elevator, and hit the '5' and the elevator went up slowly, and then it reached the fifth floor and I got out. I walked down the hall and knocked on '533' Alanna was at the door in less then a minute, I think she was surprised to see me, "Hey." I said in a soft tone, and she let me in.

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A/N:

this chapter is 10x better and I actually like it 🙌🏼