Buttercup Kisses (completed)

5

Since becoming official with Opie my life seemed to have brightened. I really can't explain it, but it's as though my own personal sun slipped into my life and make my once simi-dimmed world very bright.

after Kenny and Ellie found out that I am seeing their dad they always ask to come to the bakery or spent time with me which I love hanging out with them. they are amazing kids and are just as their dad was when he was younger. 

Opie's put my name on their pickup list so if ever he can't go get them or Mary can't find time for someone other than herself.

just the other day Kenny had asked me right in front of Opie if I was gonna be their mom.

I told him that Donna though she was no longer with us. she'll forever be their mom and I'm not trying to take her place. and if they want they can call me mom but I'm not forcing them to.

they nodded their heads and went about what they were doing before Kenny asked that question.

after they had gone to bed Opie dropped a surprise bomb on me.

"I loved her. but not in ways I should have. I just loved her cause she was my kids' mother. apart from that, there was nothing there. and it may seem cruel or something. but I got with her cause I was lonely. I don't regret having Kenny and Ellie. I just wished they were ours" he told me

I was speechless for different reasons. one is I honestly thought he loved Donna cause I'd always see them hanging out in school. and the other reason for me having not spoken was him saying he wished Kenny and Ellie were mine and his.

"I will not be upset if they call you mom. I will be very happy actually" he said

"if they wish to call me that I'm fine with it. if they don't want to I won't want them forced to call me anything they don't like" I told him

"I understand that. and I'm not gonna force them to call you mom if they don't want to. but I know you're gonna be one hell of a mother to them, one that they really need," he says

"they will be treated as if I had them. and if we ever have our very own I'm not gonna treat them differently then our blood. the love will be equal to them all no favorites or anything of the sort" I told him

He smiled before kissing me.

Since that happened it seems as though that's all I can reply in my head which sometimes draws my attention from conversations or my tasks at hand till my name is said or someone nudges me to bring me back to the present.