୧ ׅ𖥔 ۫ 𝗝𝗮𝗲𝗵𝗲𝗲'𝘀 𝗗𝗶𝗮𝗿𝘆 ⋄ 𓍯

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"as we all standing here. to thank our lovely fellow friend, baek jaehee who took her own life last night." the principle smile sadly as some of them gasp and some of them started to cry, even the teachers.

the head prefect who's standing near the stage purse his lips after the principle shed a tear, trying hard to not cry.

"to minseo and jihyeon, i'll be glad for both of you guys to come to my office later." she added and went back to her seat.

both minseo and jihyeon look at each other before crying, "we're so sorry, jaehee.." they mumbles.

the head prefect glare at both of them as they went towards him, "is it too late to apologized, haechan?"

"fuck off, both of you monster." haechan scoff and walk away with a diary in his hand.

minseo gasp and hug jihyeon. "we're so sorry for doing that to her.." jihyeon yell causing haechan to scoff at them and turn around to roll his eyes at him before walking away again.

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"mrs baek, here.." haechan handed the mid age woman the diary.

'jaehee's diary' was written on it which causing the woman to cry.

"she gave it to me that night before she left my house.. i didn't dare to read it, i think you should have it instead."

"thank you for taking a good care of her.." she mumbles as she hug him.

haechan smile and broke the hug, "i loved her sm.." she smile and pat his back.

"ik.. she loved you too.." haechan start to cry after she said that.

haechan excused himself and went to the toilet.

on his way there, he bumped onto minseo and jihyeon.

"what the fuck are you guys doing here?" he ask with cold tone.

"to apologize.." jihyeon sniffles.

he scoff and leave them.

"fuck your apology. she's gone now," he then walk away from there.

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mrs baek sit on her bed and hug her fav plushy. she smell it and started to smile, "your scent are still here, love.."

"i love you sm, rest well up there.." she smile.

she then remembered about the diary, "what's in here?" she ask herself and flip the diary open.

-

2 days later..

"haechan?" mrs baek smile after the front door slowly open revealing haechan who's looking very gloomy.

haechan smile weakly and step out of the way, "come inside, it's freezing.." mrs baek then step inside the house while hugging her tote bag.

"can i help you?" haechan asks as he sit in front of her on the couch. "i want to give you this.."

haechan stare at the book on the table that was placed by mrs baek, "why?" he look up to mrs baek with teary eyes as he slowly touches the book cover.

mrs baek shrug, "i've read the whole book every night.. i think it's better if you're the one who keep it." haechan sigh and grab the diary and stare at it before flipping it open.

"she loves writing diary since she was 4.. her first diary got burned by her own brother, he thought it was junks so he accidentally threw it in the fire." mrs baek said.

"she have a brother?" , "had." haechan purse his lips.

"what happened to him?" he asks.

mrs baek took a deep breath, "he-"

"you don't have to if you don't want.." haechan smile and pat her hand. mrs baek shakes her head, "i already got over it, don't worry."

"he was only 16 when his school became one of the active shooter's target.." she clear her throat.

"we fought the night before.. jaehee was only 6 when it took place, she actually already felt like something's going to happen to him that morning and insisted on letting him going to school but i still haven't cool down about the fight so i ignored jaehee and let him go anyway

the second we got to his school, jaehyun said he's not feeling well but i'm so stupid.. i yelled at him for being so dramatic and pushed him out of the door and drove away leaving him there

jaehee was already crying after i drove away and i drop her off to kindergarten without waving goodbye at her like i used to everyday and 4 hours after that i received a text notification from jaehyun, i ignore it and continue the meeting without feeling bad about doing that to my children

after the meeting ended, my late husband rushed inside my office with sweat covering his forehead and his eyes were red. he hugged me and cried on my shoulder saying that jaehyun was one of the victim. i immediately checked the text notification and start to cry like there's no tomorrow.."

"i remembers it very clearly.. he texted me saying how sorry he was and that he love me so much, he even send me a selfie of him smiling with tears rolling down his cheeks, i even saw his bestfriend laid her head on his shoulder with blood sprinkled on their faces."

haechan sigh and look down, "i'm so sorry.."

"yeah, i lost both of my children now.." she smile. haechan also smile and went to hug her.

"i miss her." haechan mumbles as he hug her. mrs baek chuckles and pat his back, "me too."

mrs baek slowly broke the hug and grab both of haechan's arms, "i got to go now, see you around.." she smile and walk towards the door.

"thank you.." haechan wipe his tears that kept on falling. mrs baek chuckles and walk out the door.

haechan sigh and went upstairs to his bedroom and drop his body on his bed. he stare at his blank ceiling before he decided to read the diary. "jaehee's diary.." he mumbles and flip to the next page.