my mind and my soul's a mess right now...so many emotions I cannot handle barely even put into words...I don't know what to feel or how to feel, thoughts creeping up on my i'd never wish for them to be there, not knowing where they came from or where to go... my heart feeling split in half yet so whole...
everything hurts so much, the feeling of constant sorrow overthinking everything, not being sure of what is and what is not...
not being able to express what once was normal, wishing to give you what you always deserved...
knowing i caused most of the pain, being the reason for so many fights and tears...
there's so much chaos everywhere not knowing when it's gonna be better, if its ever gonna be better, when all this pain will be gone not just for me but wishing with from deepest of my heart that you will be fine and really feel what happiness is like without any depression or despair...knowing there is no fault to give to someone who's honest to her feelings...i will never judge!
all this pain, but nothing will ever change my true feelings that are currently covered by this pitch black curtain..
