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|23| 𝒢𝓊𝒶𝓇𝒹𝒾𝒶𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝑔ℯ𝓁

I was right, there is a road in the
backyard that leads to a tarmac

How do I know this?

Well, we are currently sitting in
the plane, getting ready to take off.

I'm sitting next to Aleksander
who said I couldn't sit next to Dylan,
that's why I'm ignoring him.

Marina is sitting next to the youngest
of the family who's name is Veronika.

Dylan and Viktor are playing a board
game with Karina. Izabella
and Xavier are watching a weird dating show, laughing like idiots.

I usually go to sleep on flights but
I have to be on guard,
I don't trust any of them; they could
just be waiting for Dylan and Ito do something stupid so they can kill us.

I need to figure out what Marcus is on
about, he acts like a dick for no reason
but when we went to lunch he was fine,

Maybe it's an act he puts on in front
of Eden, but I still need
to make sure she is okay just in case.

Right now I want to know what
Louis is thinking. if my presence
meant anything to him, or if
I was a valuable person in his life.

I'm closer to him than I am to
anyone else,I do appreciate him
and how he never gets very serious

But maybe all I was to him is some
type of boss, someone whose
ass you kiss to get a promotion.

I mean considering how close we are,
I want him to be my 1st hand
but maybe that's all it is to him
a promotion and a way to gain power.

As bad as it sounds I think that's all I
mean to most of my friends,
with Stephen he tries to convince me
that it isn't about an alliance or any
business but about how he likes me.

I don't believe him or anyone who
says that, but I want to,
you have no idea how badly I want to
trust them. but I don't think I've ever
trusted anyone since my father told me

"Everyone wants something in return"

Maybe it's stupid of me to believe that
but it's never been wrong before,

He carved the first letter of each
word on the back of my leg,
it wasn't as painful as it should've
been, I was used to him cutting me,
but for some reason when
I cut myself he always got pissed.

He said that if I wanted to cut
myself go to him, one time
I did go to him and he asked me
where I was going to cut myself,

I pointed to my arm and then he told
me how I should've picked a better
place then he cut me where I pointed.