My Twins

Eleven

Today was one of those days where things get serious. I'm talking serious talk like deep talks, meaningful talks, talks some people would rather not have. Me, Jonah and Noah were sitting in the clearing we all love. It was a nice day today so we decided not to go to school and just hang out here all day. Literally, we've been here all day. Noah left only once but just to get us some lunch. But now we are sitting in silence.

"Have you had sex before Knox?" Jonah asked out of know where. I sit up from where I was on Noah's lap. Noah grumbles sitting up as well, he wraps his arms around my waist and resting his chin on my shoulder. I stare at Jonah wide eyed.  "I'm sorry?" I ask. He chuckles taking one of my hands and rubbing my knuckles softly. "So? Have you?" He asked turning serious. I swallow getting nervous. My heart picks up and I suddenly get very uncomfortable with how Noah's arms around me and Jonah's hand holding mine.

They should know, as my boyfriends they should know. I take a deep reading myself. "A-Against my will" I mutter looking down at the grass. It was silent for a few seconds, Joann stopped rubbing my knuckles and Noah was still. They don't like me anymore. They are going over ways to break up with me softly.

I close my eyes to stop the tears from falling. "Come again?" Noah asked his breath on my neck. I ball my hands into fists. "My first boyfriend...he-" I feel tears falling down my cheeks. "We dated for a few m-months and I thought he knew that I didn't want to...you know do that" I explained looking up at Jonah. "My parents were out on a date and we decided to also have a date night. A-After a movie we made out and he pushed me down o-on T-to my bed" I stop wiping my face with my hands. "I told him to stop b-but he just...just kept" Noah let's go of me and Jonah drops my hand. I bring my knees to my chest.

"He d-didn't stop! A-And I...I just laid there because I was weak and couldn't do anything. I T-tried screaming but he gagged me" I cry.

After a few minutes I stopped crying and took another deep breath. "After he left I just laid in my bed crying. I didn't tell the police or my parents, I stayed quiet because people don't believe guys when they say they get raped" I said looking up at them. Jonah has a hurt look on his face while Noah looks like he might explode with anger. Jonah grabs my hand again tugging me closer. I sit on his lap while his arms wrap around my body holding me close.

"I am so sorry you went through that and I'm sorry I made you talk about it" Jonah whispers in my ear. I rest my head on his shoulder just so I can relax. I would have to say Noah is more the cuddly one in the group. Any time we aren't doing something I or at school he has his arms wrapped around me but that doesn't mean I don't like Jonah's cuddles. I love both their cuddles.

"You didn't make me. I chose to tell you because you guys deserve to know" I sigh lifting my head to look at both of them. I cup Jonah's cheek and he leans into it. I hold out my other hand for Noah to take which he does squeezing softly. "You guys mean so much to me. I would love you do that with you guys it just might take a few days." I admit.

Now that they know what happened to me years ago it feels like a small weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I trust them both with my life to know they wouldn't dare hurt me. Just like I wouldn't hurt them. And I know they haven't told me about their horrible past and I know they have one but I hope one day they will tell me.

"If I ever see whoever did that to you I will murder them" Noah growls with a glare. I smile at him. I crawl off of Jonah's lap onto Noahs kissing his nose. "No need to worry he left town" I giggle.

I hope I never see his face again I don't know what I would do if he came back. Probably cry or just run away. Don't judge me! I don't like the guy and I absolutely hate him. I'm honestly pretty scared of what Noah might do if he sees that guy. I wouldn't stop Noah from beating the shit of of the guy because he deserves it. But I don't wish death upon him because I'm a nice person.
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