when we cross paths again. chuuya x Dazai smut 16+ (slowburn)

killing me with bittersweet love

Later that evening after all the work had been finished and turned into Mori, chuuya and Dazai we're able to get back into there normal schedule. They went on there patrol around town making sure there was nothing out of the ordinary happening, then they came back to the port Mafia base before they we're seen. "Chuuuuyyaaaa" Dazai mocked the ginger. Chuuya turned around and looked at Dazai with an annoyed expression. "What" chuuya murmured. Dazai grabbed chuuyas hat quickly and started to run "mine now!"  Chuuya ran after him, screaming profanities the entire time, this happened practically everyday and it pissed chuuya off to an extent. Chuuya tackled Dazai to the ground to retrieve his hat but it didn't go as expected. Chuuya pinned Dazais hands above his head as a reflex. "This feels wrong" Dazai murmured. Chuuya had realized the position they we're in and his thoughts went wild, "WELL DON'T MAKE IT WEIRD THEN!"  Chuuya screamed in defense. Dazai simply chuckled at the gingers defensiveness. After all Dazai didn't know what chuuya was feeling, he didn't know....would he even care? Dazai squirmed his way out of chuuyas grasp and stood up, dusting himself off. Chuuya's heart felt like it weighed 100 pounds as he felt his heart beat increase. Minute by minute, being stuck with Dazai drove him insane. We wanted Dazai to love him, he wanted Dazais love and nothing more. Chuuya stood up as well and placed his hat back on his head. "Fuck you"  chuuya murmured quietly. Dazai, without thinking fired back "you wish you could fuck me". Chuuya just stood there dumbfounded, he couldn't speak. Dazai was mentally kicking himself. To chuuya though, that comment was bitter....Dazai wasn't wrong, he really wasn't, but chuuya couldn't say that. Chuuya for once had to back down but Dazai didn't feel accomplished, that comment rolled off Dazais tongue so easily, almost as if he wanted to say it. Did he? And why did it taste so....so bittersweet....and why didn't chuuya deny it? Chuuya isn't a liar, he hates it when he has to lie....but a part of him didn't want to deny his love for Dazai, he couldn't deny it. Chuuya walked up to his room and collapsed on his bed. He let out a deep and heavy sigh as the vivid images of Dazai flashed in his head. "Fuck" chuuya groaned. He rolled over and before he knew it, he was asleep. Thinking of the brunette who he was secretly fond of alwase helped him sleep. It was his guilty pleasure, it's almost like a drug to him. When would he be able to tell Dazai? Would he ever tell Dazai?